It took me 22 years, but you know what I realized? I dont care what anyone thinks anymore. I dont care who disapproves or who thinks Im doing life all wrong. Yeah, maybe my life doesnt make sense to most people. Maybe, I love the crap out of everything and everyone more than anyone thinks I should. Maybe, I give more of myself than anyone thinks is safe or rational. Maybe, I wear my heart on my sleeve so much so that most would consider it incredibly stupid. Maybe, because of the way I live my life now, Im not putting myself on the road to great wealth or fame or fortune. Maybe, I appreciate little things so much more than most people think is necessary or worthy of appreciation. Maybe, Im crazy and radical and a bit over the top in every area of my life, but thats just me. I am who I am, and thats all I really know how to be. I am always going to care; I dont know how not to. Im always going to try to take the time to let you know in some small way that I think you are awesome, no matter how weird and unconventional that may be. Does that make me gay? No, even though some people may believe so. Does that make me fake? Some assume so. Does that make me crazy? Well, I never claimed to not be. The thing is that I cant control what anyone thinks of me, so Im done trying to. I am simply a girl, a football loving, music playing, weight lifting, letter writing, off roading, sunset watching, still believes in the good in this world kind of girl, with the dream of making this world a better place in the little way that I have the chance to. One smile, one laugh, one word, and one heart at a time, and I refuse to change that for anyone.
Posted on: Sun, 28 Dec 2014 00:02:45 +0000