Its been a kind of bittersweet weekend. Spent some time with the kids as well as Mom and Dad were together. Friday was supposed to be some simple quick haircuts that turned into visiting with friends, lunch, an apple/fall farm (Pattersons for those familiar), a cool grocery store--awesome dinner and desserts for all. Saturday Alex and Dad spent some time with grandma and helping her out around the house while the girls and mom spent some time at home. All in all, it was normal stuff families should do when they have the time--things we havent done in a long time. Mom and I both missed the hell out of Si and it showed. I picked up some stuff to hang some photos and we have some stuff of his to go through, but it was still just a bit too much. By Sunday, it all seemed to weigh on us just a bit too heavily. And, I log onto Facebook and I see others dealing with the same battle, different battles, triumphs, setbacks, and losses, seems like a lot of emotions all around. One side note I know I hadnt shared here yet is how I actually sleep different since Si has been gone. That is, when I actually manage to get sleep. Im one of those people who sleeps on my side and curls up--hands under pillows. Yeah, the doctor says that is bad, but anyhow. Since then, I found, when I sleep, my arms are lower now, my legs not curled up so much, and it took me a few times to realize I was doing this and then it hit me that it is how I used to nap with Si, wed snuggle and Id wrap my arms around him just like that. Its no surprise. After all, Im never going to let him go.
Posted on: Mon, 20 Oct 2014 05:12:24 +0000
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