Its been kind of a rough week. I know I am fighting a depression, and I have kept it at bay (to some degree). I have slept far too much during the day, though I managed to keep my commitments to others, and I have forced myself to work out, although I have not run in over a week. I did go out and dance just a little tonight at a happy hour show at the Saxon, but the club is small, and I dance pretty expressively, so rather than fight the aging burned out hippie for boogie space, I chose to let him and his friend have my spot. I figured since he appeared completely oblivious to much other than his dance partner it was the least I could do...This is all born out of a longing for my parents make no mistake about that...I felt it pretty strongly last weekend and it has stayed at the forefront of my mind since. I have been missing them something fierce. I did find a little reprieve earlier in the week when an incredibly caring woman I dated in high school, wrote and told me she dreamed of me and my parents in Las Vegas and we were all laughing. I feel fortunate that she took the time to write me because Im sure she did it to make me feel better. I often times dont know why people care enough about me to do such things, I mean, she and I never see one another. But when I witness people helping others, it does my heart good. I also got a call last week from a local and well respected Casting Agent who told me she was going to put in a good word for me at the Talent Agency I am currently trying to get on with, Gosh, how nice is that !!! I left my former Agency 2 weeks ago and while I feel good about that decision, I do need to act, and that generally requires and agent!! DUH??? Another example of what is good in people is last night when I asked the actress sitting next to me in class what she did besides act she told me she was in graduate school in a program designed to help the hearing impaired. I just love that. What an unselfish career to get into to….We are getting a small amount of rain here in Central Texas, though we need so much of more… I’ve never celebrated “LABOR DAY” (even when I drank, because, well shit, I was always drinking and never needed a reason to, waking up was always good enough for me). So it would not bother me one bit if all the privileged “trustafarians, or trust fund babies” get rained out on Lake Travis. I think Mother Earth is far more deserving, don’t you? Well kids. It’s 9 pm Central Texas Time, and I am going to hit the weights for about an hour…Thanks for being decent and good people, and thanks for having hearts and souls and contributing to the human condition because this world can get a little cruel at times…If nobody told you they LOVED you today, let me take this opportunity to do so. I LOVE YOU….BE WELL…ED
Posted on: Sat, 30 Aug 2014 02:04:32 +0000
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