Its been two years since I started admining. Exactly two. I can honestly say, I never thought Id get this far. If I did, I would have thought of a more creative admin name. In these two years, Ive learned many things that school never bothered to teach. Friendship. Patience. Loyalty [not going to explain all three because then this post will be super long]. I made amazing friends during the time period. On my 17th birthday, my friends promoted this page trying to get it to 5k. They also made videos, drawings, and collages for me. If I message someone saying I need their advice, they reply back as soon as they see it. Last October, something big happened and a lot of people stood up for me. People whom I didnt even know were there helping me out. Admining have been great, but it also has its downside. Its taking over my life. Id rather admin and go socialize. Id rather admin than go shopping. Id rather admin than do homework. Id rather admin than study for important tests. Id rather admin than hang out with in real life friends. Admining is literally all I want to do. I love being online and spending time with each of you. And that is the problem. Admining is not something I could live my life with. Unfortunately, I dont get money from admining. Its just a hobby. Something Im supposed to do in spare time. But Im putting admining in front of everything else which is not how it is supposed to be. As some of you may already know, Im in my senior year of high school. Im getting a lot of homework and I have to study for a lot of tests. But the thing is, Im not even understanding the things were learning. I have to spend a lot of extra time on school. My mother told me that things have to change. I have to do something different to get what I want. At first, I tried admining less but it didnt work. All I thought was Oh no! I didnt get to admin today. Then, my mother repeated what she had said earlier. I took that as a sign. “Dreams do come true, if only we wish hard enough. You can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it.” ― J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan And now I have to sacrifice my everything. I have to quit admining. Trust me, this isnt something I woke up to and decided. Ive been wanting to quit for a very long time but I kept saying to myself that I wasnt ready. I knew it would benefit me but I kept trying to think of alternatives. But then I realized Ill never be ready. Were never ready to say goodbye to something we love. It just has to be done. Ill be leaving the pages I admin. For the ones I own, Ill be handing it down to other admins on the page who I know will do a great job at taking care of it. As for this page, I thought there is no point of having it now than Im not an admin. Then I mentally kicked myself. That is not the reason I made this page. I made it so I could bring a smile to faces. So, Ill still be posting here. But honestly, Im actually crying that I wont get that happy feeling anymore when a page I admin reaches a certain amount of likes. Or that excitement of sharing something that happened in a fandom (but I do have my fandom group for that). Im not sure if this is permanent. In the future, I may have those days where Im completely free and have nothing to do, so Ill ask some of my admin friends (whom I wish to remain in contact with) if they need a temporary admin for their page. But Im done being a full time admin. Thank you for the amazing two years. Its been great. Ill forever remember these 730 days. :)
Posted on: Sat, 22 Nov 2014 01:46:56 +0000
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