Its my 10 year anniversary...and I want to publicly Thank my Lord & Savior Jesus Christ for every second, of every minute of it!! Some might say its a crazy thing to celebrate but if you knew my story and witnessed my transformation...youd understand. UNEXPECTED……11/14/2004 I DROVE 100 MILES AN HOUR INTO A METAL POLE & THAT POLE DIDNT BUDGE. MY CAR, CONDENSED LIKE A SODA CAN & I WAS ONLY SAVED BY GOD’S LOVE. DID I DESERVE HIS GRACE? I’M MORE THAN UNSURE THAT I ACTUALLY DID I OFTEN QUESTION IF HE DID IT FOR ME, OR WAS HE TAKING MERCY ON MY KIDS AT THAT TIME I WAS THE WORST…….FATHER THAT IS. I FIGURED I HAD ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD TO BE AROUND FOR MY KIDS AND BECAUSE I QUOTE ON QUOTE HANDLED MY BIZ, I FIGURED NOTHING COULD BE WRONG WITH THE WAY THAT I LIVED. I REMEMBER WAKING UP COVERED IN BLOOD, AND PIECES OF BROKEN GLASS THINKING THAT THIS WAS THE ULTIMATE PUNISHMENT FOR HOW I LIVED IN MY PAST. THINKING HOW I WAS JUST TWO BLOCKS FROM HOME & NEEDED THE STRENGTH TO MAKE IT THERE TO SAY……. I’M SORRY! REMEMBERING HOW I USED TO SAY NOTHING COULD TAKE ME OUT OF HERE, SHORTER THAN AN ARMY. HOT TEARS FLOWED DOWN MY FACE AS I PICTURED THE LOOK ON MY WIFE, MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS AND MOST OF ALL….MY BABIES FACES. STANDING OUTSIDE OF MY HOSPITAL ROOM AS THE DOCTORS INFORMED THEM ALL, HOW SORRY HE OR SHE WAS THAT I DIDN’T MAKE IT. THE THOUGHT ALONE WAS TO MUCH FOR ME, I COULDNT TAKE IT, SO I TRIED TO LIFT MY BODY TO NO AVAIL. RIGHT THEN I KNEW THAT I HAD BROKEN MANY BONES BECAUSE THE PAIN WAS SO INCREDIBLY INTENSE & HURT LIKE HELL AS SMOKE FILLED THE CAR I KNEW I WAS RUNNING OUT OF TIME TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT WITH THE SAVIOR. I THEN REPENTED FOR EACH AND EVERY SIN, ASKING GOD FOR 1 FINAL FAVOR TO PLEASE PUT ON THE HEARTS OF THOSE I LOVED A SECURITY OF KNOWING HOW MUCH I DID, WITHOUT DOUBT. AND FOR ALL THE ONES LIVING AS I LIVED, TO SEE ME AS AN EXAMPLE & A REASON TO CHANGE THE COURSE OF THEIR SELFISH ROUTE. I GUESS THAT’S WHEN THE PAIN INCREASED, MY CLARITY CEASED, AND EVENTUALLY……I PASSED OUT. I A WAKED TO A BRIGHT LIGHT OF A FLASHLIGHT AND A WOMAN SCREAMING ‘SHE JUST CALLED FOR HELP TO GET ME OUT‘!! I REMEMBER BEING DELUSIONAL IN THINKING THAT, THEY COULDNT SAVE ME, THEY WOULD ONLY PROLONG MY DEMISE. A FEW MOMENTS LATER I HEARD ANOTHER VOICE YELL ‘WE NEED THE JAWS OF LIFE’. NEXT I REMEMBER THEM COUNTING TO THREE BEFORE PULLING MY BROKEN BODY FROM THE WRECK. AND A WOMAN SAYING ‘HE’S IN SUCH A BAD SHAPE, I NEED TO CUT OFF ALL HIS CLOTHES SO I CAN CHECK’. MY NAKED BROKEN BODY LAID OUT ON A METAL SLAB IN THE BACK OF THIS AMBULANCE AND ALL MY DERANGED BRAIN CAN THINK IS HOW SHE JUST CUT IN HALF MY FAVORITE JACKET & PAIR OF PANTS. MY MIND DANCED, IN AND OUT OF CONSCIENTIOUSNESS AS IF, THE SIRENS ON TOP OF THE VEHICLE WAS A LULLABY. SUDDENLY I HEARD THE RANTINGS OF A YOUNG MAN SAYING ‘HELP MY COUSIN, I REFUSE TO LET HIM DIE!’ STILL DELIRIOUS I CRIED OUT ‘WHO ARE YOU, YOUR NO COUSIN OF MINE!!!’ HE REPLIED ‘JOHN TAKE IT EASY, I AM YOUR COUSIN ON YOUR MOTHER’S SIDE. JUST RELAX WE’RE ALMOST THERE AND I SWEAR YOUR GONNA BE JUST FINE’. I’M SO WEAK AT THIS POINT, I CAN NO LONGER MURMUR WORDS AT ALL I PASS OUT AGAIN ONLY TO AWAKEN THIS TIME BY THE BUSYNESS AND LOUD NOISES OF A CROWDED HOSPITAL HALL. IMMEDIATELY, THEY RUSHED WHAT WAS LEFT OF ME, INTO A ROOM MARKED SURGERY AND PRECEDED TO WORK ON ME & MY BODY WITH THE HIGHEST SENSE OF URGENCY I HEARD 1 OF THE DOCTORS SAY OVER ME, ‘I’M CONCERNED THAT THIS YOUNG MAN MAY NEVER WALK ANYMORE‘! WITH THAT STATEMENT MY TEARS BEGAN TO POUR, I SLOWLY LIFTED MY HEAD AS THE DOCTOR SAID ‘THANK GOD, THERE’S NO DAMAGE TO HIS SPINAL CORD’!!!! A CONSTANT MORPHINE DRIP MADE THE NEXT FEW DAYS AS PAINLESS AS CAN BE SOMEWHERE IN THE AFTERNOON OF DAY 3, I DEMANDED FOR MY DOCTOR TO COME AND TALK TO ME. I INFORMED HIM HOW I HATED HOSPITALS, AND FOR ME TO FULLY RECOVER HE HAD TO SEND ME HOME. HE SAID ‘WITH YOUR MASS AMOUNT OF INJURIES, ONLY WAY I WOULD, IS IF YOU COULD STAND UP ON YOUR OWN’. I AGREED, KNOWING I WOULD HAVE TO MUSTER EVERY OUNCE OF STRENGTH I’D NEED. IN ORDER TO BE CONFINED TO THE COMFORTS OF MY HOME, I’D HAVE TO SHOW, THERE’S NOTHING I CAN’T ACHIEVE!! ENDURING INDESCRIBABLE PAIN I SLID MY BROKEN BANDAGED BODY TO THE END OF THE BED. TELLING MYSELF CONSTANTLY THAT I CAN DO THIS & THAT THE PAIN WAS ALL IN MY HEAD. I STOOD!!!! TO THE AMAZEMENT OF THE DOCTORS AND TO MYSELF - SINCE I’M BEING COMPLETELY HONEST. THAT MOMENT WAS MORE THAN AN ACCOMPLISHMENT, FOR ME IT WAS A TRIUMPH! THE DOCTOR MADE THE ARRANGEMENTS FOR MY DEPARTURE JUST AS HE HAD STATED. AND AS THEY TRANSFERRED ME FROM THAT DREARY ROOM BACK TO THE AMBULANCE I FELT TOTALLY ELATED. RIGHT AS WE GOT CLOSE TO EXITING THE HOSPITAL, THE SKIES ABOVE BEGAN TO RAIN WHEN I ASKED THE ORDERLIES TO LEAVE ME IN IT FOR A MINUTE, THEY THOUGHT I HAD GONE INSANE ALTHOUGH I HAD NOT GONE CRAZY SOMETHING INSIDE ME, HAD DEFINITELY CHANGED I FELT AS IF I WAS REBORN AND THE WATER WAS SENT TO WASH AWAY MY PREVIOUS LIFE FILLED WITH PAIN. THAT WAS SOME TIME AGO, AND I’M VERY PROUD TO SAY, I RECOVERED 100%, AM A GREAT FATHER, AND A BETTER MAN………………. NOW THAT IVE ACCEPTED IN LIFE, WE SHOULD ALL STRIVE TO LIVE RIGHT BECAUSE NONE IS EXEMPT FROM……………..THE UNEXPECTED! TRUE STORY #LifeLine #TEARSOFAGHETTOCHILD #BRANDNEW youtube/watch?v=d6oQgLAufIA
Posted on: Fri, 14 Nov 2014 14:44:43 +0000