Ive discovered a new psychological disorder similar to what war veterans experience. They have PTSD. Well I have self diagnosed myself with PGSD, post gang stress disorder. Never thought I would live to see this age but here I am. My every waking movement is affected by my former life and thatll never change. This pursuit of a normal existence is futile Im always going to feel like a hyper vigilant meerkat when Im in public. Always extremely careful crossing streets less I get ran over....always positioning myself and angling to give myself the best chance to survive gunfire. Never standing still always moving always watching always reading the ebbs and flow of everything around me looking for the tell tale signs of impending death. Always remembering the things Ive done to others and wondering if Ive ever hurt innocent people. Just waiting watching....waiting....watching.. RNS....smh
Posted on: Thu, 26 Jun 2014 04:11:05 +0000
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