Ive posted a couple of times about just how surreal this past week has been. I made a pretty important (for my self) decision to remove myself from a community. There were tears as I really loved what I was a part of - but my work and my character and even my reputation were being attacked publicly and privately. This caused so much discontent - because whether we like it or not, when some one bad-mouths you, it DOES affect other peoples perception of you and they view you with that opinion clouding their lense of you. So when you (I) are naturally perfectly imperfect and show yourself (myself) as someone less than perfect, it acts as a form of confirmation to prove the argument that she is not .... (insert bullshit here). Anyway, I decided it was no longer worth my energy trying to deal with the chatter and that chatter escalated recently to accuse me of something that ... well, in short, horrified me. When someone is committed to seeing the worst in you and is even willing to fabricate stories to support it, that is a force that will take an incredible amount of energy to counter. And frankly, I AM WAY TOO FREAKIN AWESOME to deal with de-mentors like that. Their place in my life is in a very dark, dim, space that I only ever draw on for inspiration. They do not belong as a part of my daily life and especially when Im shining ... nor do they deserve the right to be able to attack the fabric that makes up me. I LOVE MY WORK, I LOVE MY RESULTS, I LOVE WHAT I BRING TO THE TABLE. Why the fark would I or should I have to endure someone elses demented (aka mental) instability about me when I can just get on with it. So, Am I Ever Gonna See Your Face Again? NO WAY, ...............! You know the rest. ALWAYS SERVE WITH LOVE AND KNOW THAT WILL ALWAYS ALSO ATTRACT HATRED. #AWESOMELIFE #CELEBRATEEVERYTHING
Posted on: Fri, 03 Oct 2014 22:35:11 +0000