Jeremiah 29:11(NLT) 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. THIS WILL HELP SOMEONE TODAY! Those who know me, know I like to keep it real. As our Pastor would say, “I will talk about me.” As I prepare to go into 2015, I sit and reflect back on my 2014 year. I believe this was my most difficult year. I was very depressed in 2014, no one would have known it because I’m not one who wears my emotions on my sleeve. I was a very unhappy woman and I allowed it to affect my relationship with my daughters. I lost someone very dear to my heart in 2014, my aunt Diane Howard. She was like a mother to me and she loved me dearly. In 2012, I made a decision to leave my marriage. In October 2014, I became a free woman after 15 years of being with someone. It wasn’t an easy decision, but a much needed decision. I was dying on the inside. I didn’t want my children to think that this was how a marriage was supposed to be. I don’t want to place blame on who was right or who was wrong. I just know that we weren’t good for each other anymore. I say I have Jesus and you say you have Jesus but we couldn’t get along. I didn’t want to cause him anymore unhappiness and I didn’t want to be miserable anymore. So I loved him enough to let him go. I wish him the best in his life’s endeavors and he will always have a place in my heart. I didn’t think I would be able to make it on my own because I had been with this person for so many years. But I believed and trusted God that I would be ok and I am still making it!!!! In the past 3 years, I gained over 80 lbs because of the emotional eating that I was doing. I had spent so many years trying to be the person that someone else wanted me to be, that I lost who I was. Once again my daughters were watching me. Remember, your children watch everything that you do. If you are entertaining Johnny, Sam, Tim, and Joe, they are watching you. Two weeks ago, I started listening to a song by Vicki Winans called “Release It”. At first I just listened to it, but then I started hearing it. Before I can get what God has for me….I must release what wasn’t and isn’t good for me. Now that I am a divorced woman, my main goal and focus is to raise my daughters to be God-Fearing Women of God. I want to have a better relationship with my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, and I have a goal of losing 100 lbs and Social Media will have to take a backseat. I know that 2015 is going to be awesome, because I am learning to fall back in love with me! Never lose who you are to have a relationship and to keep a man. If they don’t appreciate and love you for who you are, then they are probably not the person for you. Watch what you say and do around your kids because they mimic you, (your relationships, your eating habits, your language). So as I prepare to enter 2015 with great expectations…..Goodbye 2014, you made me laugh, you made me cry, but it’s time to move on.
Posted on: Wed, 31 Dec 2014 16:00:39 +0000
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