Jordan you have come so far. I still remember the day you were born as if it was just yesterday. We had already spent 4 days in Labor and Delivery with light contractions every now and then. On that 4th day i remember the Dr on call went into my room and checked your heartbeat did a sonogram & he left without saying a word. When he came back it was with a couple other nurses & they told me your sons heart rate is raising and that means you both are viable for an infection so we have to get him out of there now my heart dropped i felt you kick and all i could think about was why, why me. What did i do wrong, i didnt know what to expect. I was scared to think about what you were going to look like if you were going to make it through the night. They had given you a 35% chance of survival At just 24.4 weeks gestation. They had to do an emergency c-section we had no time to wait for your grandmother. I was in there ALONE, i was panicking and when they told me you were born i expected to hear you cry and they brought you next to my face so i could see you i remember crying cause you were so tiny and your skin was see through pinkish red they rushed you out of there. I kept saying wheres my baby, is my son okay. They just told me hes stable for now hes getting treated. I wasnt able to see you until 3 days later. Which drove me nuts i kept calling the NICU every 2hrs making sure you were doing good. Your very strong baby. I didnt get to hold you until u were 2 and half months old and it was only for 10 minutes if you were able to control your desats and bradys. I hated not having you home with me. We were separated for 4 whole months even though id go see you everyday all day that wasnt enough for me i wanted you home. The day u came home was the best day of my life. They told me you beat all odds no brain bleeds, nothing was wrong with you except underdeveloped lungs which is common for any premature baby. I look at you now & i cant believe how far youve come its amazing seeing you grow & learn new things each day. Your the light of my life. Everyday is different with you. I love you Jordan so so much. Your always going to be my 1st real love.
Posted on: Wed, 13 Aug 2014 01:22:05 +0000
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