Just a few minutes ago I thought I was going to fall into depression again... I realized I had missed a Bangtan Bomb (yt link) and felt even worse because I dont know why... But BTS really are something.... I watched the video and started to feel a little more... Relived I guess.... Then I saw their BANGTAN Bomb just uploaded from Golden Disk (m.tvcast.naver/v/279141 ) and started to smile and almost laughed then I saw a sequel to Jin & Jimins BB (tvcast.naver/v/279142 ) and now Im all calm and happy again. Jimin is often insecure about himself yet he accomplished so much already... Jin gave up acting but hes still happy with what hes doing... My surgery went well so I wont have to continue worrying about not being able to become what I want... I shouldnt care about my insecurity about my face right now. I should study hard so I please my dad so that I will gain his support to continue down the road i want to follow. So that I wont have to be sad about keep disappointing him, or being scared of hurting my parents by never grabbing the chance I have for free studies that sweden actually offers. Just a few minutes of video recordings of a group of guys and I feel like I can accomplish something after all, and all that insecurity I felt before is gone. The depression that was lurking has been outshined and forgotten. Music is awesome in that way, and the people working hard to make that music is way better, because without them the music I often turn to wouldnt exist. BTS really are amazing, and I just wish I could write all this in hangul so I could tell them what one or two people will see on their feed now or later on.
Posted on: Sat, 24 Jan 2015 03:36:33 +0000