Just been to see my lil boy, on this blessed Friday..Only to come back to work and recieve yet another upsetting call, this time ITV are doing a documentary and want to do a segment on Kream Developments and my crew PBR, but have asked to feature my son in his new car also as they absolutely love it, being the youngest kid to be so kitted out in an electric car at his age. So many flipping opportunities bein lost that could potentially get him noticed by big shot producers/directors etc. Hes so gorgeous MA I just know he would easily get noticed. I know some of u may think Im a lil eccentric and over the top but its just who I am and its what I do, I didnt ask to be this way but it is what it is. I guess I just want to use my popularity to make my sons life easier, so he doesnt have to struggle like I did, give him an opportunity to be someone and not no average joey born n raised out of Ilford or Dagenham, thats not what I want for my son. I want him to be successful. There was lost opportunity for him to meet Amir Khan when he visited Childsplay in Ilford, Lost opportunity to feature in Tynchy Stryder and Wretch 32 video shoot, I was approached by a marketing director for a kids show who wanted my son to attend with his new car but that was an opportunity missed and now this ITV documentary.. Im sooo frustratingly and helplessly pissed off right now!.. Even the new promo video Im filmin for my sons new electric car doesnt have him in it, he should be the face of this product as he inspired me to build it, and its because of this that Kidded Out - by Kream Developments was born, our new line of all things modified for kids, thanks to my son!. Sometimes I just want to give up n jog it, but then I think of what Ill say when he asks me, Daddy why did you leave me? .. And the thought of that really saddens me cos Im not that sort, Im all about family n my loved ones esp my own kids.. so for now I guess Ill have to stick with the arrangement in place like Im some sort of threat to my own son.. See him for an hour each week in a tiny room where we run out of things to do quickly, play with the same toys week in week out, play with his electric car which we can barely drive.. I cant even give the thing for him to take away n enjoy as Ive been advised not to since every innocent action and intention has been thrown back in my face and led to me spending 24 hours in the nick only 2 weeks ago, and the possibility of being remanded in custody. Thankfully the case was dismissed and I was released without charge. Im tired of this bullshit and the UKs laws behind fathers, we have no support or rights whatsoever. If I just had one wish, it would be to have my family back, but if that werent possible id ask for his mum to experience just one contact session like me. Having her son brought into her to spend only an hour whilst a woman sits in the corner and takes notes, like shes a threat to her child or something, to not be able to leave the room with him, do the same thing week in and week out and then to eventually have him taken away from her when the hours up.. To go home to an empty cot, wake up to an empty cot, no sound or smell of her son.. To only eagerly wait until the next session to do it all again... Anyway rant over!.. Heres todays pics.. I know you are all prob wondering what led to me being in this position, dnt worry, I will tell all soon. Just waiting on one last outcome...
Posted on: Fri, 14 Nov 2014 14:14:05 +0000
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