Just been told to cut my wrists, to stop being ungrateful, and to quit whining about having bipolar disorder, because its apparently a good thing to be diagnosed with it First of all, telling someone to cut themselves, can tempt that person to actually do it. And imagine if that person cut into a vein? Imagine if they seriously damaged themselves? Imagine if they died? You would be to blame. And believe it or not; bipolar disorder is a form of depression, and it makes me stand out from everyone. I will go through a few weeks of feeling on top of the world. Ill dance in the street, sing out loud, talk fast, spend money on pointless things, go to the extreme, and these high moods are fab. Just makes me look like a complete and utter psycho, which I wont give a shit about at that point because Im too manic. And then I will have months of not talking to anyone, drinking, self harming, thinking suicidal, sleeping, not having the energy to get out of bed, because I question each and every day what is the point? The worst thing is, I have no idea when my moods will change. Im happy now, but its so scary to think that I could wake up tomorrow dreading to face another day I cant control how my mind works, and all of this will never go away. Its a part of me, and I have to deal with it. But Ill get through it, for my family, and my future. But telling me to cut myself, (which I dont do anymore) is so difficult to face. Luckily, I wont do it. Because its not worth it. So to the people who joke about depression, and think that some depressions are easier to handle, youre wrong. All of the depressions are a challenge, and you have no right to stoop so low and make people feel even worse. Wanted to get it out there, not even fussed about the hate Im about to get. 👊
Posted on: Tue, 22 Apr 2014 00:20:53 +0000
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