Just felt like being a little introspective. Ive been thinking alot about why I need so much stuff and all of reminds me of a simpler time. A time when I was innocent and carefree and happy! I like to have things around me to remind of the good. I have had a lifetime full of experiences in my short 37 here and I know without a shadow of doubt that my girls who on a daily basis make me lose my mind, on the weekly make me wanna runaway and at the least monthly make me feel like just waking off and never coming back....those out of control hard to handle loving angels are my saving grace!!! When I was down and broken and Didnt see a way out I had to get up for those girls! When I didnt want to get out of bed I did solely for those girls! The forced me to keep going an fighting, for me and them! When you have kids like mine that cant do much for themselves they actually need me to fix food, and shower them and do all these thing a normal 9-11 could do that mine cant. So I had to! I Im so grateful I had to because they deserve it! These kids on the surface seem like I was put here to care fr them but the truth is they are here to save me!!! They are here to teach me!!i hate it when people say god doesnt give you more than you can handle because I think its a test to see how you deal with all the shit thrown your way! What do you do when giving up isnt an option..well if your a strong one you just keep going. Take each day as it comes and never be that person that got you to this point be the person who has been forged through all the crap,lies,Hurt ,heartbreak,broke down spirit and been harden like steel and take anything with a grain of salt! Im so thankful for those wonderful kids!! The truly have done more for me than I could ever do for them! They are perfect! They are pure and innocent and dont see peoples flaws they love and respect everybody!! Aw if the world was more like them!!! It would be weird with everybody stimmin and stuff but you get the point! Lol the person I am know is jaded I know this. Im cynical and a glass half empty whens the othe shoe gonna drop girl but thats how Ive been conditioned and in fine with that because if I hadnt have had my babies god only knows where Id be! Im so proud to be their momma! Sorry for the ramble now back to all your football and Ebola talk
Posted on: Fri, 10 Oct 2014 03:28:39 +0000
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