Just lying here in the bed. Mind running a thousand different places and wishing that I could just go back in time. To change or correct what ever wrong or wrongs I have done in my life. So that i could have back the things I love and miss most, that completed me. I have some great friends and family that are supportive and very encouraging and i love them and appreciate them. But to be honest, truly honest. You can hold your head up high, put on a fake smile and pertend all is well. But you cant never run or hide from the true feeling that is forever seeded inside your heart. It never goes away and time does not heal it. Because there is nothing to be healed. A wound will heal a broken heart can be mended. But a for ever ending hole that is rip out of you never heals. The only thing can happen is that was lost returns to fill that gap. The part that completed you! And I am with out that in my life and have no idea to how to get it back. I miss that part of my life that is gone, the parts that completed me and made me whole, made me smile, made me laugh, made me cry in joy and full filled me with a never ending love everyday. Yeah you can hold your head up high and smile and laugh like your moving on all day everyday. But nothing or no one will ever fill that hole of completeness, expect the one or ones that completed you. Sometimes you cant help to think way was I ever born.
Posted on: Sat, 08 Mar 2014 06:13:27 +0000