Just received a letter from Synchrony Bank telling me why Discount Tires refused to approve my application for their credit card. ($30 off first purchase with the card.) Experian, the credit reporting agency, reported to them that Im dead. Must have gotten their info from that well known genealogy source who also say Im dead. Which reminds me, I was suicidal about 4 months ago...really. I finally said to myself, Well, if I want to die, then Ill just live life like Im dead. LOL That was a good idea. It took a lot of pressure off of the story I was telling myself. Then I Skyped with a nondual college professor in Canada who trains addiction therapists. He says, You sound hopeless so just be totally hopeless. Theres nothing you can do anyway. At first I was pissed as him but then I started laughing. Spending time with him and those Kiloby folks has been a game-changer for this old man. I see now that as long as you dont kill yourself, being suicidal and feeling totally hopeless can be the greatest thing that ever happened to you. No faith...just this. No shit!
Posted on: Fri, 20 Jun 2014 11:48:27 +0000