Just sitting here trying to get one coherrant thought thru my head... SO SO MANY THINGS go thru your mind... So many things you never think of... As I type this I pause and look up at you, at the greatest strongest bravest man I have ever known and I just see how weak you are right now and it breaks me... I have flashes of all the times I got hurt or sick as a kid and each and everytime DADDY did something to make it better (or tried to!!), and just as I feel myself welling up with tears you open yur eyes and it takes a minute but you realize I am there and you smile (sort of) and close your eyes again... Such a complete role reversal, I remember doing that same thing when I was a little girl... Again I feel the tears, and in comes a doctor to discuss measures worst case scenarios, procedures, all so emotionless.. I know it is their job, but I WANT TO SCREAM IT MAY BE JUST ANOTHER PATIENT TO YOU BUT THAT IS MY DADDY!! FIX HIM DAMNIT! DONT TALK TO ME ABOUT WHAT WOULD HE WANT IF... Dont you all realize WHAT YOU ARE ASKING??? YOU ARE ASKING ME TO SAY NO DONT TRY TO SAVE HIM, LET HIM JUST DIE??? HOW CAN I ANSWER THAT?? I Certified in Canine CPR... I would try until the last second for my dog(s) AND YOU WANT ME TO SAY YEAH JUST DONT TRY?? WHAT KIND OF AMSWER DO YOU WANT ME TO GIVE YOU?? It took ebery ounce of strength in me not to tell them all to GET THE F OUT OF MY FACE... JUST GO! IF YOU ARENT GOING TO FIX HIM THEN JUST GO... But I guess that is just the little girl in me... Irrational emotional little girl that is dying every second that ticks by watching you... I hope tomorrow bring better... Or just brings me hope goodnight Daddy, I LOVE YOU... I AM JUST NOT READY FOR ANY OF THIS
Posted on: Mon, 25 Nov 2013 04:34:41 +0000
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