Just wanna say that..... Ive stopped talking about mental health, I will again but I have realized why people dont talk about it, Ive felt it. The judgments, the nastiness. People that once loved me dont love me anymore, couldnt talk to me, didnt want to hang around me, over my drama, sick of my shit...... Ive got one thing to say to those people.... If thats how you felt just imagine how I must have been feeling. The shame of losing an other friend because they dont understand why you got so upset at a situation & dont forgive you when you try and explain and help them understand. The avoidance then telling you your over reacting. Talking about mental health is HELL! I dunno about coping in silence but telling people sucks!!!!!!!! Being called mental, crazy, fruit loop, psycho.... look I get it, they hate me and maybe they should, maybe even I want them too but those names.... from people that are clearly struggling with their own mental health... Most of the time the judgments come from fear, because they dont understand, cant comprehend & have even felt emotions like that before. The difference is being stuck in an emotion. EVERYONE has mental health, not everyone is mentally ill. Like everyone has good and bad bacteria in our bodies but only sometimes do we get a cold.... mentally ILL!! At that point of time that person is sick, not themselves, feeling horrible... its emotional not physical but think of the difference between being sick with the flu and feeling well.... massive difference... imagine if when you had the flu that people remembered that and talked about it behind your back? Remember the time when you had the flu and you dont shower for a day or 2, you stunk, even vomited, snot and mucus and unwashed hair... imagine if people talked about that, told other people about that, and told you its bad, made you feel ashamed of yourself, people warned people off you like a disease, didnt want to be around you and were afraid...... thats what us suffers feel like, its NOT OK!!! To become a survivor you must be your strongest at your weakest... do you know how hard that is!?! Maybe once or twice in your life, imagine struggling almost every day!? Like pulling yourself out of bed and driving yourself to the doctors.... thats what suffers of this illness must do. Its hard, its scary & you feel like shit, but when I started my journey to what they have now is alot better! Get help, screw what others think, I know its hard, for me to help others its kind of scary, its like someone with the flu or has been sick hanging out with someone thats sick, really not great if they both become sick whos going to help then? But us to the people that are there to support them, friends, family and doctors. Its so important to see a professional. There are lots of not so great ones out there, also lots of great ones. Make sure you like them. And make sure you keep going.... like with antibiotics we often stop taking them when we feel better.... thats not OK as your doctor will tell you, take control of at least that part of your life, you dont have to worry about the rest, you have support with your doctor.... now doctors... your gp?? Get serious!! Do you go to a dentist for the flu!?! No!! Then you wouldnt stop at your gp for mental health, thats silly! You do need to see your gp for a referral to a psych but seeing the right person is essential to your recovery!! Medications from your gp... yep great... AFTER youve seen a professional. Its medication.... changes your brain... get serious about it! You want people to take it serious, you get serious first. It sucks we dont talk about it more.... but I know why we dont... and its not ok. .. but Ive had people I didnt think would let me down, let me down recently... and its not ok!! Its not ok that I get told things in messages because I can be unpredictable, its not ok that Im made to feel guilty for having a day off work when I need it, its not ok that people that used to be my friends ignore me or not talk to me, its not ok that Im made to feel like things are my fault, its not ok that talking about it pushes people away, its just NOT ok! !!!! Soooo as my second last day of being in my 20s I just wanna say that screw you, Im winning and if your judging your definitely loosing.. were not immune from the flu even with a flu shot, either are those for mental health, just because you dont have it now, doesnt mean you wont. Dont hold it against people and if you cant be there when they want you too be there when it counts, not when people can see your being helpful or when theres something in it for you, but when theres not! Massive status but had to be said, Im over peoples attitudes towards this stuff, Im over hearing negative stuff about people, Im sick of being fearful of judgment. Im sick of feeling lonely in a room full of people, misunderstood and the thing is Im hardly even sick anymore... I have days but Im not mentally ill, Im quite healthy actually, probably even more healthy then you... and I know thats scary to you. But Its true, and its taken me a solid 5years.. so quit this stigma about mental health & help someone or forgive someone you care about today. We all need genuine friends. Its really what makes life worth living ♡♡♡ this will be my last post before I end an era. Happy Birthday to me ♡ X X
Posted on: Fri, 22 Aug 2014 23:12:11 +0000
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