*Kinda long post alert* Naturally with the welcoming of 2015, I cant help but reflect on everything I have been through in my life to lead me to this very moment. Most of my life, I spent trying to be likeable to everyone. I studied what popular people did and spent so much time and energy trying to replicate that behavior so I could be treated the same way. It never worked of course because I was never being myself. I looked and felt awkward. I left behind my true self in search of a better self for so long that I absolutely didnt have a clue who I actually was anymore. The only memory I had left of my true self was at age 7. Anxiety, panic attacks, and depression had made a home in my brain and acted as a straitjacket holding me back for YEARS. I was super confused why I didnt have many genuine friends until it donned on me: there was nothing wrong with who I WAS to begin with. I had no clue how to bust out, but I knew I couldnt let all this negativity consume me anymore and I sure as Hell wasnt about to just give up. I worked on finding my way for several years and at the end of 2013, I experienced my first real step forward into knowing I could learn and create who I am again. 2014 was all about taking that first step and expanding upon it, and it was overall one of the best years I lived in a very long time. With 2015, I will create even more, and I look forward to really meeting myself again and not being afraid to actually BE me all of the time. Hey! My name is Annie. Its nice to meet you.
Posted on: Fri, 02 Jan 2015 23:12:33 +0000
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