Lately I have been grappling with the decision to move to Denver or to stay in Orange County. I have vacillated between accepting a job in Denver and finding an apartment, to declining the job and opting to stay put. When talking to friends & family for their insight it was pointed out that I may be pulling a geographical as they say in AA. I had prayed for discernment but didnt seem to be getting much of a response. Of course no answer is still a form of reply. It became evident that I had not been seeking Gods will prayerfully throughout this process, rather I had been clinging onto my own expectations, keeping God at arms length until push came to shove. What I realized is that I was having a ton of anxiety around this move, which in some ways I think is why I wanted to purse it. This was an old familiar tendency to search out something thrilling-I was looking to shake things up a bit. My move would have been rushed & poorly planed. I am learning that a delay is not a denial and that God does some of His best work in our seasons of waiting. The things in life that are worth doing are worthy of prayer, forethought, planning & work. I am still learning how to be still, patient and appreciative of the peaceful life that The Lord in His grace has given me. When the addict in me starts to feel restless, ungrateful and unassured, I am grateful to have a community that reminds me to look up and rest in The Lords faithfulness. -Shannon R.
Posted on: Tue, 06 May 2014 20:06:54 +0000
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