Let Me Tell You a little more about this... On August 8th, 2005, from 12:40 pm to 12:58 pm, I was in Rio Grande City, Texas. My marriage had been shattered and my heart had been crushed into a fine dust of powdered glass. I was looking back over the years I had wasted trying to live with the wrong person. In hindsight I clearly saw how she had pushed me away and even tried to let me die right before her eyes. To this day I don’t know if it was a heart attack or not. I never saw a doctor for that episode that assailed me in the dead of some long forgotten night. I had been kicked out of my own bedroom and was asleep on the couch. In eighteen minutes I penned the lyrics below. It is a dark tribute to someone without a soul. She has no heart. She has no remorse. She is not the only person I know of with such black rivers of ice in her veins. Granted we both played the “blame-game”, our children suffered, I’ve tried to remedy that over the years. I’ll be damned if I let anyone hurt my Grandchildren! The evil it takes to tear a man apart cannot be born in hell. It comes from a place far darker than any nightmare. Even Satan could not come up with the tortures formed in the mind of a determined woman. When I finally got divorced I felt an immense weight lift off my shoulders. I went through all the emotionally animated clichés. “Good Riddance”, “Sayonara”, “Aloha”, and even a plethora of hand gestures both benign and obscene. I eventually lifted out of my funk and began the process of rebuilding myself. I will refrain from writing the endless expletives I harbored for so long, but I do fully imply them. They are mine. I earned the right to think them whenever I feel the need to. They go hand in hand with the misery fertilized by wasted years. As bad as it was, I can honestly say I have risen above all of that and walked into a better life, with a better woman to love, and a better wisdom to face the world with. Read the lyrics below if you please. They were not written lightly. I lived them. The hell that inspired them was one I almost did not survive. I also think I should say that there are parts of my soul that did in fact, die. It’s sad when you realize how much your own misfortune entertains someone. While she stood over me in the dark I know I felt the devil shivering. Luckily, God was nearby. WATCH ME BREAK By: Jose’ Luis Diaz-8/23/2005-12:40pm-12:58pm-Rio Grande City, TX (Intro-Chorus) Walk away, save yourself, just get clear, and save yourself You were too good, at pushing me away Now you want to linger, to watch me break (V-1) You took from me, I took from you Young and foolish, nothing else to do ‘Til death do us part, yeah, that was real smart We played it well, Bacall and Bogart My big shot job, my big fat raise You spent it all, so many ways You drove me mad, those last long days You drove my heart, into the grave (Chorus here) (V-2) Such an item, in high school halls Such a distance, we had to fall Long years gone, wasted away Not worth memories, just erase My loud guitars, my big-time band We had a dream, within our hands We had no plan, to become stars Now all I have left, are my guitars (Chorus music with lead here) (Chorus here 2X) From the album "PAINT BY THUNDERS".
Posted on: Thu, 25 Jul 2013 12:23:55 +0000
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