Let the dull daily ache begin. That is what I feel and that is what others that have been here say is here to stay. That is life. There are many logistics to figure out this week...cest la vie. Reading Ps 40 and 2 Corinthians 5 again this morning, we make it our aim, whether present or absent, to be well pleasing to Him. For we must all appear before the judgement seat of Christ, that each one may receive the things done in the body... That was his year GOAL - to make it his goal to please God. Specifically Tim wrote in his journal three weeks ago: My PURPOSE in 2014 is: To rescue even one man from the misery of failure and help him reach his full potential. NONE OF US CAN RESCUE EVERYONE...but what about one?! Tim had a heart for every person he met, but knew he had to focus and give time to one at a time. I love that my life is going to be marked by rescuing, loving, serving, and helping others live to their full potential. Yet it starts for me- 1. I need to be a husband to my wonderful wife, Erin Leigh Clark. She is crying on the phone with her mother right now. She wants to be strong for me, and I want to be a rock for her. Yet this is the hardest time of our lives and we cant do it alone. I am ok in saying that! We will make it, but having those that love us around us is gold. I read one letter today. It was from a man I met on a plane 7-8 years ago and have not seen since except on facebook once in awhile. His words were gold. His empathy real as he lost his son a few years ago. We have people and family that love us. Prayer/honoring letters/listening and asking instead about our feelings over the years. 2. I need to stay grounded in truth. I love that Seattle won the Super Bowl and what Russell Wilson represents (dont think God has sides by the way:). He lost his dad recently, loves others in need, loves Jesus, and shows it through his actions silently and some in public. Like Russell and so many others there are going to be ups and downs and our grounding needs to be firm in Gods never changing Word... 3. For the next few weeks pray that Erin and I can process appropriately. I know I long to have time to process and read and journal and write. That will be good for me. Honestly, I would love to be in the warm sun and process! When Erin asked me this morning what I want for my birthday next week I said, A BEACH! Erin and I were so looking forward to being together on a stunning 9 day cruise to celebrate my 40th and unashamedly be in the sun in January. We departed and flew home on day 4. As I was telling Erin this morning one of the most amazing days on memory was last Saturday as we spend the day on a remote beach in Cozumel, MX. Laughter and joy in the PLEASURE of life. We held hands and walked for miles on the beach soaking in beauty. Hours later...PAIN. It doesnt make sense, it is not fair, but I know that I know that I know there is pleasure and pain in this world beyond description. I will embrace pain and be real, but WOW, God gives us such beauty and pleasure to run to as well. Find beauty around you today! Thanks again for your prayer and care for us as a family. We will make it. Life will go on. It will never be the same and the dull ache will always be there. Yet hours or decades more to honor God and honor Tim Clark life...not sure if life gets better than that.
Posted on: Mon, 03 Feb 2014 17:00:17 +0000
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