Life lesson. (This is long...sorry)! I had a ministry friend ask for help setting their ministry in order. I should say God had me release this friendship years ago bc of personal accusation toward me and misunderstandings ... And only recently ( lad 4-6 months ). had they tried to reconnect. Ive walked very carefully bc I KNOW what was endured previously...but wanted to offer grace...I know IVE grown and changed over the years. Even though tentative about reopening this door....I made sure my mentors knew what I was about to do and it was agreed that i could reopen the doorway a little bit...cautiously. People change ya know. Over the next 4 -6 months...what I learned of them has devastated...and crushed my heart & quenched my spirit. Theyve been KNOWINGLY leading goodhearted, well meaning, sweet spirited people astray and truly USING people. The leader invited me to speak into her life & help order their ministry. I did so only to listen to her blame everyone around them for not knowing how to serve leadership, their team not fully be walking in their giftings & further how no one can know the constant demonic attack THEY suffer. When talking with her she rolled on and on of how SHES suffering for righteousness sake, SHES given all for the ministry, & and pours I to the lives of others every day. Yet....while they SHOW they have a governing authority....upon checking....that authority, when called stated theyd had NO contact with her for several years! I was shocked at this level of possible deception....and thought maybe theyd gone through with their 501c3. No!!! Upon checking it was learned she didnt want to be controlled by anyoone or the govt. Hmmmm. I shelved all that and started looking at the structure of the ministry and exploring some of her openly stated accusations only to learn SHES taking personal monies from the ministry account...sometimes replacing it and sometimes not. Thats unethical...and I told her it was unethical only to hear her arrogant reply that as much time as she spends on the phone with people....she DESERVES it. At this pointmy mentors began telling me to cautiously confront these things boldly since shed said no one had ever told her anything. So I did. Each point was met with defensive argumentation . Excuses ranged but the theme dripped of selfishness. On some things ...I openly copied her primary team member, main supporter and the person whos noted as her second in command. She refused to respond where her most coveted teammember could experience her deceptive behaviour . When I wouldnt let her off the hook, & pressed for explanations...she became indignant. The is THE SAME BEHAVIOR thats caused soooooo many people to walk away & sever relationship before. The twisting of truth is what caused the friendship to end last time. Now SHES resorted to the silent treatment...saying to others its God & once again throwing accusations of character assassination toward me telling others to PRAY bc I need deliverance. Im use to this behavior from her and have severed this very toxic relationship. While I could question left and right why God allowed me to walk thru all this....ive been so cognizant of His hand......Im grateful....hurt...wounded but not dead...and so gratefulvv. Doors have opened that I thought could only be a dream. People have entered my life that are life affirming, biblically SOLID & IVE been provided opto reveal truth His portunities that are just boggling my mind. While i grieve for my friend ...I willingly turn her and all those she affects over to Gods care. Hes certainly big enough to care for His own. Me? Im chalking this all up to a lesson well learned and moving forward living under the blessing flow of the Holy Spirit.
Posted on: Sat, 01 Feb 2014 12:55:00 +0000
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