Life rant. As I sit here eating my food I am beginning to learn more about my self. I am not perfect and do get angry. I also learn about my values and beliefs and what triggers me to help and do good. I guess are values come beyond our mind. They come from our heart. I never remembered anything before I was born. But when I die and return to the universe. I will remember my self and try and stay immortal and self aware. I know that my goal has always been to become self aware and do something great for humanity. I dont think I will do anything great but I enter this world unawakened and will die awakened. It is a good adventure and process. But as I learn more about my self I realize that I cannot be a compassionate peaceful person. I am a knight and an angel. I do love honesty and kindness and beautiful artistic values. But I also fight evil and corruption and try to associate with good people. Of course my life situation makes me stuck in a situation with not so intelligent or good worthy people. But I still up hold honor by not betraying them. I dont betray people but I do try and bring justice. I know I am having hard times. Evil tries to hide me from the world. Calls me crazy. All I know is I am born here to achieve self awareness and the rest of my life is a game to play. But even then I want to leave the world in a better place. I know that my hearts personality is my true self and not my minds personality. Knowing this I can be happy that I accomplished one of my goals. I am a arch angel of justice. I do love. And I do get angry. Balance is forgiving those that didnt know what they were doing. Death is to those who knowingly choose to be nasty and evil and fear death because they are not immortal. Such is the way of things. Life. I never asked to be this. I just was trying to be like a normal person and do what I was supposed to do. Then my mom died and I gradually become aware. My mind is like everybody else. Greedy and uneasy and unhappy and fearful and selfish and self absorbed. But my heart or my energy or soul. My core. It defines me in a spectacular way that is beautiful and is immortal. But I will probably still be angry because I live with unawakened family who damage my knightly code. I cant be around trouble makers. They make me angry and I am forced to suppress my values for their sake. Oh well. I wait for life to happen and order to change my life.
Posted on: Tue, 27 Jan 2015 01:39:00 +0000
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