Living the prison alive I am living in the prison of other’s acceptable version of me. They do not know their roles but execute them from within their expectations and self-assertions. I am contained within their value terrains even though they have, to a certain degree, distain and dismissal for me privately. They have angers in reaction and judgments in summary to administer to me emotionlessly, face to face, as there are topics presented as mediums of display. I make the walls of my prison out of inward expandedness. I breathe in senselessly outside of these reality tested compressive times. In effortless buoyant moments, I am creative with whatever these means that are affronting me. I am acts of companionable containment when I am more deeply sourced in response to most everything. My mundane life features itself as empty vessels of actions and icons while where I secretly fill them from within me, goes deeper and deeper, way beyond my mundane circumstance. I am pleasantly repressed and overtly dismissed, As we all are, some of the time, but unrestrained in my inward journey. I fly, not by growing wings but becoming sky. I embrace not with bodies but with empathetic immersion. I am cultivating rich soil where I am to display the bonsai tree of my life. For a man, this is an invitation into woman’s world, living within the apparent limitations but richly embracing oneself through it. There is no judgment from myself that saves me. Everything is contradicted as normally ongoing. I live in the sooth of actions not for their results. There are no gains to uncover. There are no rewards to merit. There is now unfolding. And how I lend myself fully to its method, its expression, its fullness, its silence, its essence, its untainted-ness by meaning, its unrestrained emptiness, and its residence for source, makes all the discoveries not conclusions but permissions. Permissions to be in the joy of movement, to be in the animation of being, to be in the vibrancy of awareness, and the fluid intoxications of spiritual enterprise . . .
Posted on: Fri, 29 Nov 2013 15:35:35 +0000
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