LÁGRIMA / TEARDROP THERE ARE IN ME SO MANY EMOTIONS ŽELJKO SURELY FELT. SUBSEQUENTLY I ANALYSE PHOTOS OF VALENCIA AND SEE AND FEEL ON THEM THE SAME I´VE FELT. IT IS NOT STRANGE AS GAJÀ IS THERE. ŽELJKO DID FEEL CONFUSED WITH SO MUCH CONTRADICTING INFORMATION. HIS INTERIOR VOICE WAS TELLING HIM TOTALLY DIFFERENT THINGS BUT HE WAS LOOKING FOR CERTAINTIES WHICH WERE TRANSLATED INTO SOMETHING PALPABLE. ALL OF THE POSSIBLE PRESSURES AND IMPLICIT CONDEMNATIONS MADE HIM TO START CLOSING MORE INTO HIMSELF, HAVE LESS TRUST IN OTHERS AND LESS FAITH IN JUSTICE OF POLITICAL CAUSE, MORE BECAUSE OF PEOPLE AND IDEAIS NOT IN ITS ESSENCE. BUT IT WAS MAINLY THE DEATH OF ŽAN AND ALEN, ESPECIALLY ŽAN´S, TORTURING HIM. IT WAS A BURDEN DIFFICULT TO CARRY AND THERE WERE MOMENTS HE WISHED HE WAS KILLED INSTEAD OF THEM. PROBABLY TOO MANY TIMES. HE FOUND STRENGTH TO CARRY ON UNTIL THERE WAS HOPE AND FAITH. WHEN THE HOPE WAS GONE AND FAITH WAS LOST THEN ALL FROM BEHIND BECAME UNSUSTAINABLE. THERE WAS NOTHING JUST ENORMOUS EMPTINESS AND EVERY TIME MORE TIREDNESS. LIFE AND EVERYTHING BECAME A BURDEN. THERE WAS A BIG DISAPPOINTMENT IN HUMANITY AND HUMAN NATURE. HE FELT HE WAS LOOSING STRENGTHS MORE AND MORE WHICH PROPORTIONALLY MADE HIM CALLING FOR ŽAN AND ALEN. SUCH STATE OF HEART AND MIND WERE A SIGNAL FOR COSMIC BODIES TO MAKE MOVES WHICH AT THE END RESULTED WITH ŽEJKO´S DEATH. OUR FEELINGS, THOUGHTS, GESTURES, ETC… ARE THOSE TO ORIGINATE ALL THE EVENTS WITH POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE OUTCOMES. FOR SUCH, THERE IS A PYRAMID OF POWERS STRUCTRED ON THE BASIS OF THE LAW OF THE BEGINNINGS OF THE UNIVERSE FIRST THEN OF OTHER PEOPLE WITH GOLDEN ENERGY. AS IN ŽELJKO´S BODY WERE ENERGIES AND THE SPIRIT OF THE SOURCE, GOD OR “BEING” (THE WAY I CALL IT) AND EVERYTHING STARTS AND FINISHES IN THAT SOURCE, NO PLANES, ARTILLERY SHELLINGS OR SOMEBODY´S LOUSY INTENTIONS COULD BE ABLE DOING ANYTHING. IN SUCH CASE WOULD BE LIKE HIS THOUGHS OR FEELINGS MOVING THE UNIVERSE IN THE SAME DIRECTION OF HIM. BESIDES HIS OWN STATE OF MIND AND THE WAY HE FELT HE CARRIED AN ADDITIONAL BURDEN. HE SURELY DID FEEL ENERGIES OF MANY PEOPLE AROUND RESULTED FROM THEIR WAY OF THINKING AND FEELING, MANY TIMES TOWARDS HIM, AND HE DID ABSORVE THEM IN HIS AND AS IF WERE HIS FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS. PROBABLY CLAIMING FOR HELP AND MORE REINFORCEMENTS AND NOT BEING RESPONDED HE IN ALL THE CONFUSION, MESS AND PROBABLY HELL HE WAS GOING THROUGH MUST HAVE STARTED SEEING ALL THE FILM PASSING QUICKLY BEFORE HIS EYES AND LIGHTS STARTED TO APPEAR IN HIS MIND. MANY THINGS SUDDENLY FELL TOGETHER WITH DENSE MIST AROUND FACTS BECAME CLEAR AND THE VEIL BEFORE THE EYES LIFTED. BUT IT WAS TOO LATE. HE SENT THE SIGNAL TO THE UNIVERSE AND THAT ONE HAS STARTED MOVING TOWARDS CREATING SITUATIONS AND EVENTS WHICH FINAL WILL BE ACCORDING TO ŽELJKO´S THOUGHTS AND FELLINGS. IN THIS MOMENT NOW I´M FEELING WHAT WAS FELT THEN AND THESE MAKE ME LIVE IT BOTH NOW AND AS IF NOW WAS THAT RESPECIVE PAST. FEELING ALL THAT I KNOW IF ANYTHING HAPPENED THEN WITH SUCH INTENSITY AND ŽELJKO WAS KILLED I´M SURE I COULDN´T LIVE AFTER THAT IMAGINING ALL THE PAIN IT WOULD BE. BUT THINGS WERE NOT MEANT TO HAPPEN THAT WAY, NOT IN THIS LIFE. IT WAS NECESSARY THE ONE TO STAY AND PERSIST, NOT RUNING AWAY AFTER THE BATTLE, THAT´S IT AFTER THE WAR. THIS LIFE WAS FOR HIM AND FOR ME, AS WELL AS IT IS FOR MANY OTHERS, A KIND OF CLEANSING OUR “KARMA”, WHICH IS, NEGATIVE THINGS FROM PAST LIFES. EVERYTHING THAT IS HAPPENING IN OUR LIFE IS A CONTINUATION OF SOMETHING SOMEWHERE IN SOME MPMENT IN TIME BEFORE. SUCH VIEW IS SO LOGICAL FOR LIFE AS INFINITE. IT WAS NECESSARY TO GIVE LIVE TESTIMONY OF WHAT LIFE REALLY IS AND HOW UNIVERSE WORKS AS SUCH THINGS ARE HARDY POSSIBLE OR EVEN YET IMPOSSIBLE TO BE SCIENTICALLY PROVED. THE UNIVERSE AND THE LIGHT THAT PREECEDED ARE THE RESULT OF ENDURANCE, PERSISTENCE, EXPERIENCE, LONG LEARNING PROCESS, GROWTH BUT ABOVE ALL OF LOVE AND FAITH AND NOT OF SCIENTIFIC EXPERIMENTS IN SOME COSMIC LABORATORY. THAT´S WHY IT WAS NECESSARY TO SHOW AND PROVE IN PERSON. NOTHING CAN WORK DIFFERENTLY AND IT HAS TO BE ACCORDING TO THE LAWS BY UPON WHICH ALL OF THE UNIVERSE IS STRUCTURED. IN LIGHT OF SUCH PERCEPTION WE CAN UNDERSTAND THE ERA THAT IS COMING AND THE SHIFT IN EVERYHING. ONE OF THE SONGS CHOOSEN TO FINISH WITH THIS IS “BROTHERS IN ARMS” WHICH HAS BEEN ONE OF MY MOST FAVOURITES EVER AND AM SURE WAS ŽELJKO´S AS WELL. IT WOULD BE SO NORMAL IF IT WAS. ŽELJKO AND I LIVED AND FELT THE SAME BUT IN DIFFERENT, LITTLE DFFERENT OR APPARENTLY DIFFERENT SITUATIONS, ADAPTED TO BE ACCORDING TO WHAT OUR DESTINIES HAD TO BE IN THIS LIFE. THE SONG “BROTHERS IN ARMS” IS ONE MORE REVEALING SO MUCH. ONLY NOW I AM ABLE TO SEE ALL THE BEAUTY BEHIND SOMETHING THAT IS SO UGLY AS WAR AND MANY UGLY CREATURES COME TO SURFACE IN SUCH SCENARIOS, ESPECIALLY IN ONE OF THOSE WARS AS WE LIVED. THE FASCINATION AROSE WITH A BEAUTY OF THE HUMAN SPIRIT THAT HAVE SHOWN THEIR LIGHT IN SUCH SITUATION. I FEEL PROUD TOO FOR HAVING HAD LIVED THAT EVEN THOUGH EVERYTHING DID SEEM HORRIBLE THEN. WE WERE YOUNG WHEN THE WAR HAPPENED AND IT SHOWED HOW MANY EXCEPTIONAL YOUNG PEOPLE THERE WAS. WE WERE THEN CRITICIZED OF BEING SUPERFICIAL AND OF NOT HAVING A DIRECTION, OF THINKING ONLY ON SUCH THINGS THAT DIDN´T HAVE VALUES. AT THE END IS WAS COMPLETELY ON THE CONTRARY. WHEN PEOPLE HERE MENTIONED IN SEVERAL SITUATIONS ARE TAKEN INTO CONSIDERATION AS MANY OTHERS AROUND ALL OF THEM WERE OLDER. ALL OF THEM WERE HIDING BEHIND A FLAG, NATIONAL SYMBOLS, CULTURE AND HISTORY BASED ON ETHNIC BLOOD FOR THEIR PERSONAL, EGOISTIC AND EGOCENTRIC PURPOSES. IT WAS THEM WHO FAILED THE EXAM. IT WAS ON THE BACK OF THOSE EXCEPTIONAL PEOPLE AMONG YOUNGER GENERATIONS THEY CAME ALONG THEIR WAY. NO MTTER HOW LITTLE IMPORTANCE IS GIVEN TO SPIRIT ESPECIALLY IN THIS WORLD IN WHICH MATERIAL VALUES ARE THE FOREMOST OR THE ONLY VALUE WHAT AT THE END MATTERS UP IN UNIVERSE WHEN WE RETURN BACK HOME IS THE SPIRIT. IT IS ALWAYS WORTH, EVERYTHING RELATED WITH THE STRENGTH OF THE SPIRIT IS ALWAYS WORTH IN THE END. FOR THE GOOD MEMORY OF ŽELJKO, FOR THE MEMORY OF THE OTHERS FROM HIS “TEAM”, FOR EVERYTHING IN THESE LAST TIMES WHICH HAVE MADE ME GROW BEYOND EVERYTHING BEFORE AND FOR A BRIGHT FUTURE!
Posted on: Sat, 22 Nov 2014 02:26:17 +0000
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