MERRY CHRISTMAS 2014 TO YOU MY STRENGTH AND EVER GREEN YEARS FROM 2015 TO 2095 A.D. Why am I so scared to even attempt to write to you again? - The direct answer is FEAR of the expected unknown. The past has taught me that my words drive you crazy into fits of anger. I lead you to distance yourself from your conscience and from God. I learned that you are capable of releasing negative vibrations if I intrude into your world beyond your limit of tolerance. By the way do you know that according to the Universal Laws, every great human including Jesus Himself will actually declare that expressing our anger is a sign of immaturity and foolishness? Even Don Bosco says, “Not with blows but with loving kindness.” The very fact that we put limit in our approach of tolerance or forgiveness indicates that we are not yet a Winner but hopefully on the path to becoming one. Another point for consideration here is that I am really cruel indeed because I know that you get irritated at my sight and yet I keep on trying to be at your sight. There are two main reasons behind this. First of all I am crazy after you and I want to pull the whole heaven down to get close to you. But I too know that truth of love that we should never and can never force anyone to love us except love to love on. Love never asks but ever gives. But the desire to ask for love is so deeply rooted in the heart of humans that I too am a miserable victim of it. But I am trying too never to ask anyone to love me except to beg from the Eternal Lover Himself to love me. Oh oh I almost forgot the very eternal fact that whether we choose to love or not, whether we beg HIM to love us or not, HE always loves us from Alpha to Omega. He even burns with love for the Lucifer itself who would but choose to hate. Secondly, it saddens me to know that you, I and many of our contemporaries are still mediocre in the prime of our life even though this 21st century is the age of the threshold of Wisdom. It saddens me the most to know that you yourself are still prone to attacks from the devil like me while my intention is really genuine and I am still ready to accompany you 24x7 into HIS arms till death do us part. It is rather ironical that people win the universal crowns or hold the scepters meant for kings and bishops yet not having mastered the art of controlling ones temper when tested. Actually we have too many academicians in our society but hardly a spiritualist even though there is no other purpose for humans on earth than to become spiritually purer and purer because by origin we are spiritual beings. I want to live up to the moment on earth where I realize that you have Become Who You Are and are emitting vibrations of love and love alone even to those who consider themselves as your enemies. I want to see you having no enemies. For your information when I go to make the confession I don’t confess about having proposed you or for having written to you again and again despite your warnings. However I do confess for being the cause of your temptation to irritation. The fact is that you are capable of controlling your anger or any other emotions for that matter just like any other great humans. I know that many out of our generation will die as losers and mediocre but not you and me. This is the highest cross I am asking myself to bear by choosing to love you the most as a male human. Call me a brat, do me your worst for I deserve them indeed but that won’t do well to your own soul, you know it. You should not mind me or anyone who even crucify you because you are invincible by hardwired nature. So, when you dive into your ego why should I not be tempted to giggle a little? –coz you are too beautiful to indulge in such flimsy bubbles of the world. We are in the season of Advent – a time to straighten the crooked paths. Getting married is so vital to glorify God’s creative purpose but it is not really that big an issue when compared to getting GOD to stay with us – EMMANUEL. What I just want now is that you be happy (not in the way the egoistic people of the world define happiness but in our Roman Catholic way where we are called to embrace even our enemies while possessing the Kingdom within simultaneously.) I believe you are wise enough to understand all these and perhaps I don’t need to be elaborating this long. Yet, I still do so to make sure and to put on record that there was this countryside Romeo who understood what love is and gave it to his unreachable star of his time…. YOU! It is something really very unique to love romantically because the lover can even get hated for having loved, for being the best, for finding God ultimately because that is what love is all about – unconditional. Why to put on record? –Because there are too many young people who still do not know what love is but experimenting things around with their own harmful definitions…. Probably I won’t be bothering you again in the visible form after this 2014 Christmas if it is HIS will for me but as long as I know that you haven’t become a living saint on earth, I will keep doing something invisible in my own creativity for you and that will never stop. This might not have been mentioned but I did it anyway with a good will and let the curse be mine. Let me put myself imaginarily in your place and try to assume what would be my response if I, as you, were to come upon this letter. There are only three possible responses for all humans: 1. As a Loser, I would straight away go for killing this son of the gun… 2. As a Mediocre, I might get confused, be more angry, try controlling my temper as a gift for baby Jesus Who is on the way, take it as an opportunity to practice forgiveness, give back a coal-burning reply, go for a face to face facing or just ignore the whole thing and carry on with the busy life… 3. As a Winner, I might agree to marry him with Coca-Cola heart, politely turn him down completely with a Coffee-smile, just teach him a solid lesson of wisdom and love in my own invisibly creative ways OR whatever!!!! Whatever!!!! BUT, NEVER TO LET THE SMILE AND HIS PRESENCE ESCAPE FROM MY MIND, BODY, HEART AND SOUL NOT MATTER WHAT. I CAN NEVER HATE ANYONE OR ANYTHING EXCEPT THAT WHICH OFFENDS THE HOLY NAME OF GOD AND EVEN THAT, NOT FOR THE SAKE OF HATING THE OFFENSIVE THING BUT AVOIDING IT IN MERCIFUL COMPASSION BECAUSE GOD AND DEVIL ARE TWO UNCHALLENGABLE UNFORTUNATE OPPOSITES. (God’s absence in Hell is not because HE hates the devil or the place but because it is a barrier set up by the devil itself by his choice of misusing the freedom and God in HIS unconditional love respects even the choice of a molecular giant sinner like me.) From here, one of the great lessons of love we can learn is that WHEN WE LOVE SOMEONE (and we must love everyone) WE MUST GIVE THEM THE FREEDOM TO MAKE THEIR OWN CHOICES. I HAVE TOLD YOU THAT I LOVE YOU AND I AM READY TO MARRY YOU AND READY TO TRY IMMITATING THE HOLY NAZERETH FAMILY TILL DEATH DO US PART… BUT AS BLESSED AS MY FATE OR DESTINY WOULD GO, YOU DON’T SEEM TO HAVE THE SLIGHTEST INTEREST IN ME AND I AM THANKFUL TO YOU AND TO LIFE FOR THAT. BUT I WON’T STOP LOVING YOU AND ALL OUR FELLOW HUMANS EVEN IF I MARRY SOMEONE ELSE FOR HIS GLORY. WHAT CAN I DO MY DREAM GIRL BUT RESPECT THE FREEDOM OF YOUR CHOICE IN THE WAY THAT YOU ENJOY THE MOST. I ONLY WISH BADLY SO BADLY THAT I COULD WALK ON THE WATER TO GET TO YOU BUT YOU HAVE TAUGHT ME TO ACCEPT WHATEVER MY DESTINY IS. LOVING YOU HAS TAUGHT ME HUMILITY, PATIENCE, CONTENTMENT, HARDWORK, PURITY, RESPECT AND ABOVE ALL BROUGHT ME MUCH CLOSER TO HIM. SO I GOT EVERYTHING. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE AFTER ALL. HAPPY AND BLESSED ARE THOSE WHO SEE THE TRUTH BETWEEN THESE LINES. I know I am just a beginner in love but I am prepared and ready to face each day as my last and live to the full with whatever the Good Lord blesses me with. Loving you till the end of time, HAVE A WONDERFULLY TANGIBLE CHRISTMAS AND EVER GREEN YEARS AHEAD. God bless.
Posted on: Wed, 03 Dec 2014 05:28:23 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015