MY STORY #Episode_5 When I turned 26 I called my mother and said, “Mom pray for me. I am now ready to get married!” Today I laugh at that. It was so far from the truth. There was a lot more learning and preparation before I would even be close. In the year 2002 God began to speak to me to return to Kenya. I was not for the idea. Usually when you are abroad, coming back home is very daunting. You tend to see all the impossibilities and not the possibilities. I remember one time, while I was struggling between doing my own will – staying in the US, and doing his will – coming home, the Lord spoke to me from the book of Jonah. This verse shook me to my core: “Those who cling to worthless idols, forfeit the grace that could be theirs” Jonah 2:8. I wasnt about to forfeit his grace. I surrendered to his will. Once I committed to coming back home, the Lord told me very clearly, all your blessings are in Kenya. Your husband also is in Kenya. I was so excited! Finally, we were going to hook up! …not!! Ten years later, I was still single and not a single man had asked me out on a date those many years. Can you say “FRUSTRATION!!” It felt like God was leading me on and all his promises were a hoax. I even began to doubt he had been leading me this whole time. I was sick and tired of waiting and people were not making it easy. Let me break down this mess for you! • There are the Peninah’s – These ones got married right on cue. No waiting, no delays. Everything worked like clockwork. They had children right on cue as well and boy do they rub it in!! “What are you waiting for? Our children are now going to high school? Or you are waiting for a perfect man?” • Then there are the Delilahs – Let me hook you up with a guy who can sort you out. You just need a man. These one’s are looking for your weak point so they can bring you down. For some reason, the fact that you are waiting in holiness really annoys them. One called me “Gathingu” – Holy one. • Then there are the guys who want to sleep with you so they keep trying to make crass jokes. When you ask them to behave they insult you. One guy asked me, “Are you keeping the hymen for the termites to eat after you’re dead?” LOL! • Then there are those who judge you outright. They tell you that you wasted opportunities in the past and now you are saying that you are in the will of God. Who will marry you now that you are past your prime? Heh heee! They say you are late and therefore cannot expect to get the best. You can only marry a widower or a divorcee. Nuff said!! I think these are the ones who would make me run to God and just fall down at his feet. “Lord, you know!! Lord, you know!!” One of the things I learned to do from the Nigerians was to cancel these words immediately. I would always speak the opposite of what they said. I would say never!! I will get married and I will marry a young man who has not married in the past! I would say out loud, I will live in Holiness and walk the path of righteousness that God ordained for me! I would say, just because they went before me does not mean that the blessings are over. My own blessing is there. At the appointed time, I will get married and I will have children. God helped me to withstand the insults, the judgment, the wrong conclusions. I would pray for thick skin so I could keep holding my head up. And the years passed… Suddenly, early 2014, something changed… To be continued…
Posted on: Wed, 25 Jun 2014 13:59:49 +0000
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