Man I woke up today feeling refreshed, redeemed and able to see light again even through all this snowfall. To my friends and family that I havent made much effort going around the last few months, please forgive me and know that it was not anything yall did. Getting out of the trap opened up my mind to all kinds of crazy spiritual and emotional battles. When I separate myself from the world its because Im struggling to understand something. If I cant understand it, I look to God to avoid my understanding being effected by the world. Like, I cant even explain this in words but when youve lived a life full of evil, in its most intimate of forms, all that evil turns into conviction as Christ is washing you off. I mean conviction after heart breaking, stomach turning, conviction. Youre heart is going to be broken and mended more times than youll believe me telling you. Knowing what Ive done in life, can you imagine my convictions. See, God aint making this easy for me by any means. My blessings have been radical and unbelievable because of what I have promised to endure for Him in exchange for my redemption but my convictions would drive the average man without God in his life to suicide, and I say that with confidence...... because I was that average guy. What Im trying to say is, when I decided I wanted better in life, I was ready to pack up and not ever look back on Rocky Ford. It represented everything I now hated in life but God kept me here because leaving was too easy and there was no honor in it. So, 2 years later here I am, fighting everyday to help clean up the messes Ive made, fix friendships Ive broken, little by little pay debts Ive made during my darkness and to stand up for the injustices of the people who accepted me as one of their own town folk 25 years ago. We can either stand together and walk towards redemption and salvation like a family, or we can battle it out to the death because thats what its going to take to make me stop chasing Gods heart. Love you all and may God be with you all.
Posted on: Wed, 07 Jan 2015 18:26:54 +0000
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