Many of us close 2014 with an empty chair, an emptiness of heart and the cold winds of loss, anger, depression and sadness. Tonight, for the last time in 2014, I sat down at a table and for a couple of hours went thru every receipt from purchases over the past 3 months. State Farm requires you to show that you have purchased replacements in order to be reimbursed. This will go on for another two years. The process is tedious and opens the flood of painful memories. State Farm has been exemplary in the wake of January 19, 2014. I am blessed that I am even here to request reimbursement. I am blessed twice that I had insurance that will repay as I rebuild my life. I walked into City Dry Cleaners this week and noticed the brooms they sell in the corner. I had bought two very unique brooms from there when I first moved into 67 Pine Cone Court this time 7 years ago. Yes, the memories will keep coming. Yes, the anger will boil from time to time. The peace, however, continues to remind that IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL. I am walking away from 2014 and from January 19th. I have been blessed this year by the hundreds who have sheltered me in prayer and love. I continue to be favored by tribal members walking up to me and simply loving on me about keepin em honest in The Turtle. I treasure having the Lumbee of all ages look into my eyes and show me that they appreciate the truth of my heart and words. I especially am fond of the 70, 80, 90 and 100 year old elders who simply walk up to me and hug me or kiss me or rub their cheek against mine like Mrs. Addell. In 2015, I make no promises except to keep following where the good Lord leads. 2014 showed me that God allows destruction and builds his mighty fortresses of strength upon ashes left and people broken. So I will continue to be ready to champion for Him and those He would have me to bring under my wing. (Theres 60,000 under there already so its getting kinda crowded.) So I welcome 2015 with joy in my heart and a happiness that I havent known for a long time. I will be in armor for the battles God wills me into. For whatever reason, God has found favor in me and my life. He blesses me with time spent with many of you, with moments with mom too numerous to measure and with a new reason to wake each morning smiling and greet the day with optimism. Happy New Year Lumbee People - I charge you to make it a good year for yourselves, your families, and our tribe. Happy New Year to EVERYONE IN MY LIFE - I charge us all to set aside differences that dont matter. I charge us to resolve to fight evil in all forms and to stand up for those who cant fight for themselves. I charge us to be better stewards toward each other. I charge us finally to break bread often together and with hearts that share joy, love and laughter. To The Hearts Feeling Loss - Without faith, there is no comfort. As men and women we cannot rebuild our lives from tragedy. You have to seek out and contract with the son of a carpenter for He alone can mend that which is broken. I end with the familiar call of The Raven - Be blessed and be loved and share lots of both with the world around you!!!!!
Posted on: Wed, 31 Dec 2014 03:42:25 +0000
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