Many of you dont know that two years ago I lost someone very important to me. This was my best friend, the first person/girl that I fell for, the first person I cared for more then myself ... I loved her ... I was in love with her... I would do anything for her whatever she asked ... And well.... June 14 we went on a joy ride and we decide to speed for fun .. Another car came over the hill and to avoid hitting it i swerved and lost control... My car flipped several times rolled and then slid .. I watched her take her last few breaths that day .. I saw her hang beside me dead basically ... The images still haunt me ... When she died i wasnt myself... i didnt want to eat talk or sleep... i didnt want to get close to another girl or human .. I wanted her back ... I stayed away from relationship because i was still in love with her ... i pushed myself to date guys because i just couldnt wouldnt look at another girl ... She always came first ... she still does ... i miss her terribly .. the day she died my whole life flipped upside down ... I was 18 went this happened ... i started my first days after graduating high school morning for my best friend ... i was a zombie ... months past and i was going to court every other week because i was at fault for her death .. i use to cut not for attention but because i wanted to feel pain .. just like she did that day ... i wanted to be with her ... i was sucidial ... then i went to jail for 6 months and now im serving 6 months house arrest ... people say i deserve more time ... but NO TIME OF JAIL will bring her back .. i would do years of it if it meant she could come back ... I relieve this everyday and thats pain enough ... Now you guys know ... now you know why im on house arrest and what not ... i love you so much girl and i miss you .... its almost your bday ... youll be 21 save a drink for me lovely ... i love you beautiful
Posted on: Sun, 24 Aug 2014 02:24:55 +0000