Memories of him and me haunt me everynight as i lay my head to rest on my pillows. Then tears start to roll down my cheeks,and i would cry hard.Is it worth it?I questioned myself. The relationship we had was only 1 Year but we did so many things and battled through so many challenges.There were too many memories of the past. We met through a common friend,from there we chatted with each other.Once,i didnt reply you and you thought i was attached to another guy,but you just tried your luck,and we were officially attached on the 20th of May 2012.We did alot of things together as what other couples will do.Watching movies,dinner and taking a stroll together. But,i remember at one point of time,the first time we officially met each other you fetched me from work.It was raining at that point of time,and you knew i was afraid of the dark and the thunderstorm.So,you accompanied me home,send me up to my unit and gave me a hug with a kiss on my forehead.I was so touched and i realised you were the right guy for me Everytime i put myself myself to sleep,i would keep thinking of you,but i wonder whether you will do the same.And how you are feeling out there. I will think to myself,im here being so emotional and still fighting for the relationship,but what about you?Are you carrying your life as per normal,or are you still sad over the break up? I miss your Good Morning texts and messages,it just brightens my day up.And one most significant memories was when i overnighted at your place.I laid my head on your chest,and you cuddled me to sleep.Just us,spending quality time.And as i looked through the stuffs in my room,i found your ring anf the Tigger plush toy u gave me,and also the Lap top casing.It makes my memories of you more vivid. As much as i want to forget you,it is so hard.I dont have much gay friends.Right now,i only wish for a hug and a good talk.I am so devastated.Yeah,its not the end of the world.But,i have loved him so much and my relationship with him was the longest i had. I miss talking on the phone with you. I miss receiving hugs and forehead kisses from you I miss having your company when we go out. I miss receiving Good morning and Goodnight messages. I miss the way you hugged me and pat me to sleep,and i miss you joking around with me. I miss lying on your shoulder and chest,not forgetting under your arms. I really miss you..As much as i try to forget,it doesnt seem to be working,but i know you wont be coming back to me.Although you said,you still loved me,it does not guarantee you will be back. Should i keep crying every night and yearn for his return?Although i know its impossible.
Posted on: Wed, 12 Jun 2013 03:00:01 +0000