Miahs words of wtf wisdom... for my family. Kinda long. I have spent the last few evenings in some of the greatest company I have ever had the pleasure of sharing time with a truly exceptionally kind and wonderful person. I have been doing what I truly love to do. Play mmorpg video games... But I havent played in a long time... as I explained to them where I had been and what had transpired over the last year. As I relived the events of the last 14 months I had an epiphany about regret and hatred... I dont like the word hate.. and I have used it freely this year... There is a reason I dont like it. Because hatred clouds clarity and distracts rationality. Acts during hate filled events lead to regret. I thought I hated a person one night and I said some things I can never be forgiven for. I didnt say the things intentionally, however regardless of intention, I said them. Honestly, I said them because I was hurt and I wanted to hurt them back, it was very immature of me. I realised after months of replaying the night over and over in my head that It was not the person I hated but what that person had done. A thoughtless act of selfishness and a hurtful attack. And I responded about how I had felt reaching for anything that would hurt I blurted hatefulness about all they had been over the years and all that I felt the person had not done. It culiminated into one hate filled rant that will be immortalized in that persons memory as what I truly felt about them... it was untrue of course i loved this person more than myself but made a terrible mistake that is regret. What I realized was that no matter how bad you hate a person at a given point, for one or a few things in time later you realize that there are thousands of things that you may love about them more. no one deserves to have their feelings broken they way I did to that person and vice versa of course. But saying whats on your mind at THAT moment of total hatred is never wise, no matter if its truthful or not, if its hurtful, its wrong. Be careful the next time you fight with family or your spouse and be mindful that no matter how much you may love them one day they may choose to forget you if you hurt them once you say something you cant take it back its permanent and forever. Just a thought... --Miah out.
Posted on: Sun, 16 Nov 2014 03:16:19 +0000