Mommy decided to day is a quiet family day. We need a break. My poor guy is getting more weak by the day. Hes had fun living it up the past couple days but each time he lets me know hes done. He did perk up a bit this afternoon and showed a glimpse of how he was. His eye is horrible! I made him let me cover it tonight. Its not closing hardly at all now. He tries so hard to eat. Hes asking for different things all day and will take a bite or several but more often than not it comes back out bc he just cant swallow it. Hes hardly going pee. Hes drinking but really not that much. Its so hard to see him change so fast. My heart is breaking a little more every single day. I cant explain how much of a roll extreme emotions put on your body. Im exhausted yet I lay her unable to sleep. Hard. I want my baby here with me. I wish his healing could be earthly. I need a day just soaking him in selfishly. Quiet, us, and an art project or two. I miss his voice. I miss those meltdowns even. I wish cancer didnt exist. I love you Richard! To the moon and back!
Posted on: Thu, 21 Aug 2014 03:08:31 +0000
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