Moving ahead into the new year is not the same for 2015. I am blessed to say we celebrated the holiday season to the best of our abilities. I think all of us felt a little closer to Brad at the Christmas Eve 11:15 pm service at our friends Danny Mebane and Julie Davis Mebanes church. That is our new tradition. Scripture was read, songs were sung, candles were lit, and I know my tears fell freely. I think Andrew Joyner, Paige, Sam, and Jarrett liked holding their own candle inside a church the best :0 Gray Pettigrew, held my hand tightly as is our MO and we came home to rush the kids to bed. The three little ones were all happy the next morning, my Andrew was a little disappointed, Santa didnt bring him the flat screen tv or the gamming computer he wanted but he did get some cash to help him along. I received the two material things I wanted..tickets to see Wicked and my UGG boots. I received the most beautiful meaningful gift from Robyn Jarrett Pettigrew. She gave me five clear ornaments that contained dried flowers from Brads grave. I know! Pretty awesome.. I will admit dear ones New Years Day and the next day, and the next were very tough. I was trying to process the fact that we were now living in a year that my Bradley will not physically live in. Our earthly life together ended at 2;55 am October 12,2014. These past few days I literally felt like I lost him all over again. Cuddling with my Paige under Brads blanket, stealing kisses on Andrews cheek, fighting with the tree as I took it down(it almost took me down ;0 hearing Jarretts laughter and Sams literal humor and a conversation with another amazing mom, Kelley Sharp, has slowly brought me around. Thursday will be my first day back at ACC. Full time. I will have Imodium close by :) Just because I had a tough couple of days, I knew my Jesus was right there with me. He knows my whole heart. The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit - Psalm 34:17-18 #breakingbrad #memoryliveson2015
Posted on: Mon, 05 Jan 2015 23:27:44 +0000
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