My Dear Beauty... With My Determined Soul...I Searched My Heart...With All Diligence...For Out Of It Flows The Issues Of Life...Wondered Whats The Point Reading Thick Books...And Not Following The Good Things In Life...I Saw The World The Way I Was..As We See The World The Way We Are...But Sincere Clear Headed People See Things Differently..Each Looking Through Unique Lens Of Experience...I M One Of Them..I Couldnt Plant In the Winter And Expect The Plant To Grow In The Farm...With My Will Power..My Enthusiasm...Imaginative And Obsessed Rich Mind...I Did Not Prefer Injustice In Any Ways...My Magnetized Mind..My Capacity To Invent My Future....I Accepted Genuine Challenges And I Won...The Knowledge That The Universe Moves... My Laurels..My Victories..My Knowledge On The Human Potential The Songs I Wrote...But With Limited Human Touch..I Did Not Waste My Time..My Decisions Conformed To The Principles Of Living...But I Was As Always...And Always Late...Did Not Economize..I Guess That I Was So Much For Being Perfection That I Stopped Being Practical...The Days Passed By....But The Memories Didnt I Used My Days To Learn That Was Firm In My Mind....The Force The Power The Will The Energy Came Back..It Was Within Me...It Was Revealing Things Were Turning Out To Be Excellent..There Is Great Joy In The Transformation...Although It Was Slow But Steady..The Days Came The days Went..What I Left Behind...And What I Left Behind And What I carried Along With Myself...Through My Days Were The Work I Did..I remember Giving A Speech OnThe Human Potential...I Read Somewhere The Greatest Tragedy Of Human Life Is Not Death..But What We Let Inside Us Die...The Bottom Line Is We Have All Infinite Potential Within Us..But Most Of Us Tend To Die Amid st Mediocrity...Do We Really Recognize Our Real Potential...Well I Recognized It..When I Was All Alone As I Deleted U Out Of My Mind...Beethoven Was Afflicted With Horrifying Deafness..Break Ups...Suffered...He Once Said...Sacrifice All Life Trifles To Ur Art..I Did That...I Was What I Have Been Doing...I M Going To Be What I Do Now..But My Head Just Aint What It Used To Be...The Past Is A Great Lesson To Teach..If Only We Are Willing To Learn...I Changed Myself...I Helped Myself..There Was None...The Magnetic Needle Was The Mind...The Inner World...The Outer World...There Was A Greatness In Me That Wanted To Be Manifested..It Was Crying To Come Out And It Came Out...I Lived Like Mr Miyagi..If Somebody Stole My Tree..I Would Go Fishing..I Became The Most Enthusiastic Person I Knew...And I Gained Momentum....I Welcomed Change...Courted It....Examined And Re Examined My Opinions...Tried Keeping My Wits..Tried Thinking On My Feet...Tried Expressing Ideas With Effectiveness And Clarity...Stayed Getting Along With People Looked At Things From Other Persons Point Of View...I Just Realised Girls Brought Me Down I M Going To Get Back...And I Got Back...I Did Built Myself..I Read Books No One Else Was Reading...I Thought Thoughts No One Else Was Thinking...I Folded The Envelope Of My Capacity And My Potential Soon Unfolded...I Got Bored Up Sometimes...But The Problem Was With Me..Happiness Is A State We Create By Choice Not By Chance..Avenues Was A Wonderful Place To Work In...Taught English....In The Process Of Grooming Others I Groomed Myself..In The Process Of Teaching Others I Learnt...I Got Plenty Of Time To Think About My Novel...Sensei Tsun zu...Reminded Me Of Av....Avhineet Mishra..My Debate Guru..They Both Rock...I Was Forced To Learn The Art Of Socializing...Came Out Of My Introvert Shell...I Wanted To Work There As It Was A Respectable Job..Atleast If I Leave That Place That Day...And Work Somewhere Else..People Wouldnt Call My Language Fake...I Always Lived With A Motto U Know..Dont Give a Damn Attitude Guy...But I Did..I Was Really Affected With What People Thought About Me...Just Because Of The Fact That I Didnt Like Being Called A Flirt...I Stopped Talking To Girls..The Only Thing That I Didnt Like In Avenues Was High Expectation..Boss wanted That I Should Look At My Best...In Time I Let Go Of Pain...Hatred Resentment Guilt Anger...Started Reading Became A Psychotic Voracious Reader...The Rooh Ul qudoos..Resided Inside Me..Then My Mind Was Like A Blank Page..Ready To Be Impressed...I Felt Free..Enthusiasm Was Given Up...But I Didnt Loose A Grip On The Dreams Of My Past..I Fought Just To keep Them Alive...I Fought And I Rebelled Against Mediocrity..Life Was A Stage At Times..We Were Actors So We Acted Accordingly...What Did I Do For Happiness...Accomplished Tasks...That Did I Do For Peak Health...Made Sure Every Step I Took ..Led Me To the Mountain Top..I Wanted To Be A Prominent Personality..Take Avenues To The Natioanal Level In Five Years..I Wanted Peace In the Working Place..It Was Impossible For Me To Please Everyone...So I Forgot It...Gave Them The Best...Expected that Overtime Their Perception Will Change..I Attracted Avenues..I Attracted The Dress Code..Through Images In My Mind..I Used My Ability To Think Things Into Being...I M A Magnet So I Attracted.. With The Universe...Thought Has A Frequency..We Can Measure A Thought ...So I Emitted The Frequency On A Constant Basis..I Knew That Time Is Just An Illusion..I Uesd Props To Remind Myself Of The Thought That I M Supposed To Think...I Believed Knew And Felt That I Already Have It...The Universe Did Everything With Zero Effect...I Thought About What I Wanted..I Did Not Think About What I Did Not Want...And I Realised That It Works Every Moment...I Thought Of The Things That I Wanted To Attract...As The Last Thought Before Sleeping...I Focused With Passion And I Attracted Faster...Chose My Thoughts...Became Aware Of My Thoughts...Used Correct Affirmation...Stopped Attracting By Default...Had Fun In Choosing My Thoughts.Understood That My Thoughts By Monitoring My Feelings...It Was Impossible To Think Good By Feeling Bad...Believed In the Force That Thoughts Moved People Circumstances And Events...I Was Clear About What I Was Asking...I Was like A Child Made Believe...I Lived With Joy Gratitude A Love...My Feelings Were A Feed back Frequency Mechanism...I Changed My Emotions By Listening To Something Good...Thinking Of Something Good...My Mood Lifters Were Good Music..Books..Writing....Working In Avenues...Beatles...Guitar..Past Victories...Chess...An Educational Interaction...Ganja...I Mixed Thoughts And Love...The Universe Is Friendly..I Didnt Like It...It Was Up To Me To Me To Take The Messages They Convey..The Only Thing That Avenues Wanted me To Do Was To Break Away..Go Play Chess...Go Live Ur Life..But I calmed Down...I Summoned Every Episode In Avenues...Through The Thoughts I Was Thinking...There Was A Higher Self A Guarding Angel..I Was Ostracised By Choice...Not By Chance...People Told Me To Smile...I Forgot The Art Of Smiling..I Forgot The Art Of Socializing...I Just Enjoyed My Work..It Was An Inspired Action...And Inspired Action Is Effortless...Never Delayed....Never Second Guessed..Never Doubted..As The Universe Likes Speed...I Trusted My Instincts...As Sensei Abhineet Mishra Kept On Saying Me...My Believing Involved Acting Thinking Speaking...What Did I Really Want..?I Just Wanted To Enjoy Life...As One Day I Will Die..I Was Grateful 24*7 For Being A Part Of A Wonderful Team In Avenues...Started To Feel Different About What I Have..Power Lied In Using What I Had...Einstein Said Thank U....A Hundred Times A Day...So Did I...Everyone Visualised..We Posess Greater Powers...Possibilities Than We Realize...People Circumstances Events...Moved To Get Me What I Want...I Can Get It Done..I Can get It Done...Imagination Is Everything..It is The Preview Of Lifes Coming Attractions..It Was Wonderful No Guilt Of The Past Followed Me....Nor Does Guilt Instigate Me To Ridiculous Action Which I Could Generate...Wherever My Focus Goes I Got That...And I Understood The Message...Its Not Good Or Bad..Its Just What I Think...Power Faith Determination...Strength Of The Mind...To Stay Sober..Excellent Deadly Professional...Novelist Superhuman Potential..When I Was In School I Wrote An Essay...Stating I Wanna be A Rockstar...I Was A Rockstar In Edmunds..Av Said So..I Was A Rockstar Senior Girls Indicated So..U were A Rockstar Too..Remember U Were MY Greatest Competitor...Sensei Tsun Zu..Said The Same In Avenues...I Didnt Have Very Big Dreams..I Wanted To Be A An Excellent Teacher In Avenues...I M Widely Known In The Don Bosco Centre ...College Guys Hunt For My Song...Matured Person Not In Matter of Girls...But Pholosophy Life..I M Someone Like Socrates..As Poverty Of Ideas Lie In The Mind Of People Who Dont Think...I M A Poet Like Shakespeare Or Browning...My Self Composed Songs...The Best Of Me Is Portrayed In My Work...I M Damn Famous In India...A Celebrity In Shillong Guwahati...and Kolkata...I M the Milton And Keats Of Modern Day..What Is Life All About..Giving...Why Am I Living?To Contribute To The World And The Generations To Come....What Did I Really Want To Do...Revenge Nah..Forgive Yeah...Kill Nah..Write My Novel Yeah...I Exercised Each Day Released Hormones...I Was Just Living My Best..Enjoying My Work..I Knew My Talents Would Be Revealed...Small Trifling Issues Didnt Bother Me...My Life Was Directed To A Higher Purpose...I Could See Achievable Goals That I Could Reach For...I Ve Lost My Emotion..Life Is An Ecstasy...Whatever I Gave In Is What Manifested...It Was Wonderful To Look At The Mountain Top And Follow It..Made Sure Every One Of My Steps Mental Physical Emotional Are Heading At The Top Towards The Top For The Top...I Didnt Feel Any Emotion...So I Might Go On Working For 16 Hours and Yet Not Feel Tired..Time Flies So Easily..There Is Was Moments Back Now I M Here.What Is The Impact I Set...What Is The Power I Leave..hat Wa The Feeling That I Had In Edmunds For Four Months..Revival Dominated Me..I Was What I Used To Be...In Order For Me To Be What I Used To Be...I Had To Know What I Lost...But I Thought I Was Perfect The Way I Was...All I Realy Needed To Do Was Improve...I Was Conquering My Dreams In Stages...A Friend Spoke About Surviving...Spoke About Living...I Felt Very Happy In My Work..With Sweet People Around...They Might Get A Little Cranky At Times..But It Happens I Life...The Good Thing Is Peace..Time Passed And I Felt Great...What Mattered Is The Foot Prints I Left Beind...I Attained A Mindset Where Peace Reigns...Knowing That The Present Moment Defines The Next...And That My Life Is My Creation...I Just Lost Myself In Self Love...Jut Loved My Life...I Felt Good...Everything Is Going Great..Happiness Is Found...Rose Above The Clouds...Didt Complain.When I Was Happy I Expressed It Openly...Mam Dela Said..That She Was Loosing Faith In Me...Mam Pompy Thought That Sheikh Is A Forgetful Person..Mam Ramolla Thought Sheikh Is A Sweet Guy..But Takes Things To Heart..Doesnt Understand Jokes..Mam Liza Thought That Sheikh Is Innocent But Needs To Mature..She Was Right...The Truth Is I Was Too Damn Sensitive...The Only Thing That I Knew Was I M Fllowing My Chachas Fotsteps....I M A Miracle I Aint An Experiment...My Chacha Is a Mrace Too...I Just Used Weed...Bhang Brings Union With The Divine Spirit...Through Balance With Time And Interest...It Enlivens The Centre Of Knowing...Uncover Inner Confusion...Leads To Greater Freedom..Open The Doors Of Perception...Deep Within Each Of Us The Essential Need For A Higher Meaning In Life Needs To Be Awakened...Within The Deep Recess Of Human Understanding...The Intuitive Faculty Steers Its Course...Oxygenated Blood Helps Clear Poisoins At Cellular Level..Dilates The Alveoli...Having Health Restoring Effects...Energising And Relaxing..When We Can Think More Clearly...Altered State Of Consciousness...Not Altered State Of Unconsciousness...In Which We Are Relax But Not Aware...Which Improves The Functioning Of The Five Senses...Jogging, Chanting, Meditation, Prayer Can Also Produce Such High Feeling Allows A Body Respite From Tensions Leads To Positive Feelings Helps Avoiding Depression..Relaxed And Alert...Enhances Each Side Of the Brain..More Blood Cleaner Blood Is Sent To the Brain For Fight Of Flight Response...Perception Is Heightened..Reception Is Enhanced....Increased Creativity..Unification Of Logic And Intuition..Expansion Of Consciousness.....Producing Alpha Waves....The Person Inside Is Hiding Under The Attire And A Beard..Each And Every word People Said Had A Deep Hidden Implication....Coz These Words Emerge From A Thought..From The Mind...Which I Related To The Universal Mind..From Where My Thought Emerges...Which Is Also Connected To The Universal Mind...But At The End Of It I Just Realized I Burned Myself In Anger... Ur Loving Beast...Claiming I M Not A Bad Guy.... I M A Slave Of Allah... Its Just That Simple... I M Bholenath Doing Bhola Stuff... And Yah Now A Days I Dont Dope Anymore...I Gave Up... I M Waiting For U In Edmunds... Only A Beast Could Do What I Did To Sir Stephen Hawking... That Is What Makes Me A Beast... The Only Thing I Can Do Is Apologize For What I Did.. The Power Of Prayers Was Revealed Then.. When I Saw A Beautiful Couple Getting Married In Mgm... The Same Channel Taught Me That It Takes Two.... The Truth Is I Did Not Even Know What I Did... I Admit I Was Truly Blind And Stupid... But The Best Part Is... Jesus Never Fails... U Girls Treated Me Like A Beast.. I Chose To Live Like One... I M Just Asking U Accept Me The Way I M Nah... Even Jean Val jean Was A Beast... Are We Understanding The Truth... Where Is The Love Of The Bishop My Dear.... Where Is The Christianity That I Know... The Christianity Of Love... Defeated Beast Represents Nothing But Defeated Gog And Magog..That Is All...Nothing Much More Than That...Angels Are At The Command Of Allah...Mankind And Jinn Were Not Created But To Worship Allah...But Some Jinns Deviate...In My Ancestral House In 6 Jinns Exist ....2 Of Them Are Good ...4 Of Them Are Not...Its Through These Energies...That Is How The Work Of Gog And Magog Is Done....But Every Energy Was Created Through The Word...Havent We Forgotten That?I Mean Lets Reason Yah...Elah Created Light Long Long Time Ago...Whenever Any One Is Covered With A Positive Energy Of Love..Negative Energy Turns Into A Blessing...The So Called Negative Energy Had No Effect On Me In My Younger Days...When Gog And Magog Thought It Did...That Is How Me And Maa Defeated This Funny Guy With Horns Long Long Time Ago...Because Word Of Allah Rules...I Grew Up In Islam...I Had A Firm Foundation...
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