My faith has been challenged a few times within the last couple of weeks. Our family was hit with a whirlwind last week when my husband unexpectedly lost his job. Beings that he is our only source of income....I was devastated. I immediately went into panic mode and emotions were high. Four kids, new vehicles, new home, new business, bills, bills, bills. I was lost....one of us had to go to work immediately. We were both seeking out jobs, but nothing was coming quick enough. Why would God so blindly mislead our family? What was he trying to prove? and WHY would he suddenly put a halt on all we worked so hard for? Jordan and I were struggling personally as well. We were always so close, and by starting a new business and working a full-time job that provided a lot of overtime, we were drifting apart. Not in the way of love and devotion, but we were living separate lives. Before we talked about everything...then it became Oh, I forgot to tell you..... We would sit across from each other at the table and struggle for words to make a conversation that wasnt about guns or kids. I missed him. I was a single mom again....but of 4 children this time. I prayed so hard for an alternative. God had one. After living the past several months in complete agony (I felt), God had a solution. I had to pull at my inner most strengths to continue to pray to Him through all of this mess. I leaned not on my own understanding, but followed Him. I had to rid myself of fear, anger and resentment to simply love and be grateful for what we had. Today.....just in two weeks.....the business that has so slowly taken shape.....that I didnt want my husband to run full time (yet).....has tripled in sales. We received an unexpected check in the mail, and I have been able to recoup some things through projects. My husband and I have been able to regain some time with one another, and we neither one feel like we carry the full load. God saw the struggle. He knew it was time before we did. He knew our lives needed mending. And so He did.... Although my mind is not completely as ease, I feel like God is still working. I am a problem solver, over thinker, a little paranoid...and sometimes I just have to remember that....I AM NOT IN CONTROL. Lesson learned right? We are also working towards a very important milestone in our lives as well. Please pray for our family and all families involved. God provides.
Posted on: Sun, 28 Sep 2014 02:23:48 +0000
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