My great uncle passed away Thursday night. It brought back so much grief from when my dear uncle, passed away, 4 years ago, and I was forbidden by my family to come home for tge funeral, unless I was ready to repent my evil ways I had my own memorial online hosted by dear rScott Catamas and Reid Mihalko And I made my own peace with all of it, ( Lawrence Lanoff helped greatly too) Now fast forward 4 years, and my family is holding the funeral until I get back next week, my mom wrote me the nicest appreciation s she has ever shared with me. My dad and sister are asking for a reconciliation after 6 years of disowning me, The lover who raped me three years ago is finally asking for a clearing conversation And on Thanksgiving, my boys fell apart, they threw my things all over the living room like a bomb went off, in rebellion of me leaving the next morning What could have been a huge melt down, brought out my middle son in ways he had never been able to express before. We practice communicating, listening, cocreating, and still he felt lost, not able to find his words. After 3 hrs, of the greatest family council we have ever had, he found words, he asked for 30 mins a day of someone just sitting in front of him, being willing to on listen to anything, as he practices finding and using his voice. We were all crying, as he claimed the right to be heard. I am so excited to be home for Christmas, last year w as the first year I did not spend with the boys, so this year we have double to make up for Today starts the 12 days of love languages at our house, where we each draw a love language Acts of service Touch Words of affirmation Gifts Quality time And then draw one of each others names and give them something that falls within that love language. Feeling so raw, open, grateful, ready to unravel, and reclaim the places in my life I am still l leaking energy. 2015 is gonna be my very best year ever! Tonight I wish I had warm arms around me, whispering they love me as I open to all this new, that I had wished for for so long, then let go, and here it is being offered
Posted on: Sun, 14 Dec 2014 07:40:06 +0000
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