My journey and relationship with food hasnt been the healthiest. & in the podcast below I talk a bit about my struggles. Bear with me as this was my first time speaking publicly & through and the um and. Ya knows its difficult to put 10 years into an hr podcast & Im better w voicing my story on paper. What started off as a way to control my life I starved myself , over ate, binged on ice cream, junk food & my sisters food in their room. Following that I used exercise to loose weight bc I thought it was healthy. Once some started to notice my weight loss I ate then purged in the bathroom away from where others could hear me . I went to a therapist but stopped when things got hard bc I didnt want to talk. Years later I slipped up um teen times. I relapsed & vomited 3x a day after meals. My poor stomach. My family didnt know . After moving to fl I saw a therapist and again didnt let it work in my favor. I left . After 2 weeks on a vicious cycle I got on my yoga mat . I needed to connect and try to get a grip with myself. In order to stay with my love, I needed to get help from something more . I called an eating disorder outpatient program & started attending support groups. Jan 24 I will be 1 month sober. Not on a competition diet, flexible eating or anything special. I can tell you its freking hard. Sometimes I want to skip a meal or do hrs of cardio. ... Even lock myself in the bathroom. But I dont because at one point , some point it has to stop. I have my support system. & those Im comfortable with talking to and Im grateful. Heres to learning to have a healthy relationship with food, not letting others get under my skin and listening to my body needs.
Posted on: Wed, 21 Jan 2015 22:10:35 +0000
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