My son might not be your idea of perfect, and life is far from easy as a mother to a special needs child. I havent had a decent nights sleep in 3 1/2 years & I feel like Im pushing 90 most days. Im tired & its the hardest thing Ive ever done. I know it wont get easier as he is only growing stronger & bigger. Accepting that there is an irreversable problem has been my greatest struggle, but Im there. Ive always known that someday Id have to deal with ignorant & hurtful remarks from others, particularly when he starts school & worrying about how others will treat him has kept me up many nights in tears asking God why he would allow this to happen to my child. I know we arent entitled to an answer or reason for all of our heartaches in life and I have to remind myself it could be worse. Its horrible but it could be worse. There isnt a single person on earth without some sort of flaw, Carsons just arent hidden. Theyre noticable the second you meet him, but one thing he does have is a heart of gold. He will always have a pure, perfect heart. Hell never be cruel, hurtful, manipulative, deceptive or prejudiced against any person. He has more goodness in his little toe than any normal person & that includes myself & thats pure gold to me since the world already has its share of jerks. So, to the person who told me two days ago that I should have him institutionalized so my other son can have a fair childhood, Im extremely sad for you that in your mature age you have such a screwed up perspective on fairness. My son loves everyone & you could learn a lot from him. Im happy...no...overjoyed to have a child full of love around me every day for as long as God blesses me with him. I know for a fact noone could ever say the same about you.
Posted on: Thu, 11 Dec 2014 06:00:28 +0000
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