#MyDigitalDiary Not one to put my personal stuff out there (im very insecure...I hide a lot behind my smile) ...but Ive been trying to express myself more and not bottle in so much, so here we go Feels weird....for the last couple years Saturdays would typically go this way....me getting drunk outta my ass driving myself home and waking up the next morning and finding out how much of a fool I made of myself...this went on every weekend, I didnt give a shit about myself, feeling life had shitted on me one too many times...only way i could find happiness was at the bottom of a bottle (usually BOTTLES)..did a lot of stuff I shouldnt have, just to make others laugh I made a fool of myself but I didnt care, I thought I was having fun..what im trying to say is I basically gave up. I would go around not caring how bad I hurt my body...but a year ago my body decided to send me a message...I was sitting at home when the floor began to spin and I lost my sense of gravity...cold sweat, feet felt like jelly, began hyperventalating..went on for 5 minutes (felt like hours!)...this shook me up. NOW I gave a damn! Acting all chingon like I didnt fear death..nuuh,,F-DAT! I wanna live!! So I took a good look in the mirror and lifestyle...had to change this ASAP!! Dropped a lot of bad habits, have only drank 2-3 times the most this summer...got myself a doctor to help me....started doing therapy and starting eating healthy...dropped a lot of this weight I gained from beer (close to 50)!! Aint gonna lie, I do miss going out...but I do not miss the headaches/hangovers that came with them...this is just the begining...theyre telling me im doing really good....my goal is to get back in the workforce by New Years...hopefully sooner!! And on a side note, my back hasnt been actibg up anymore...I can actually walk fir hours on end without any problems!! I git 4 bottles fool of pain/muscke relaxers (anybody wanna buy some?) Lol, I joke!
Posted on: Sun, 10 Aug 2014 04:39:48 +0000
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