NEVER BEING GOOD ENOUGH I COPIED AND PASTED A POST FROM Prema Saraswati because I think this is a really important point and underlies the whole of the methods of psychological manipulation in SY Sorry but I dont want the whole stuff come up. I made a lot of trainings in the field of Satyananda Yoga. Here in Germany also several where I had to cancel because of maltreating and disharmony. I invested a lot of money for all that. After the YS1 and 2 I had all I learned before in a comprimind form. But all depends on your knowledge that you already have and on the teachers knowledge and their way of acting. It always was like in school. And you know how it is in school. For me the experience was more concerned with communication and interaction within the group. I wanted to be part of the family but as I never received a diploma from the satyananda yoga teaching trainings here in Germany I never became part of the family although I finished YS very successfully. So I felt. Never good enough. After so many years of training and joining all the Satyananda events I still felt as an outsider. As we were told to join the SY teacher trainings I felt under great pressure. I had spent years for teacher training in satyananda style and some other schools where I received a diploma that I couldn t believe to now start with a teacher training course about Pawanmuktasana and some basics. Noone would have accepted my former learning and training. So you have to know exactly what you want from YS. Some of the enthusiastic students went on and I think a lot landed in the sannyas training at Sannyas Peeth. For me it always was struggling for something I never could find there - to be good enough. and this was originally also from Prema Saraswati Yes maybe. As our German Swami always stated: you always have to go back to the first step. Yes. It was hard to have continuum in learning. I experienced a lot of changes within the trainings. This was not with the YS but in the Satyananda groups here. Many times the structure or timetable even the places were changed. We all had to arrange spontanously our daily work and family life to stay in the training. In the last one here in Germany we students had to wear white clothes no matter what we wanted. Every student should come in white, a symbol for being just a beginner. But after several trainings and initiations until to karma sannyasa and so many karma yoga and travelling to Satyananda Yoga events it all irrtitated me. After a while I had to leave the training again. But it was me myself who let it all happen.
Posted on: Sat, 24 Jan 2015 20:57:52 +0000
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