*NO COMMENTS PLEASE So...I usually dont share feelings on FB because I just dont like to...lol...but I will share this in hopes that it will reach anyone who can benefit and that they will know that they are not alone if they are experiencing any or all of what I am about to say: Today is a very sad day for me...Ive always felt like I was searching; I believe we are all searching for something...but Ive never known for what. Ive been told that when I go away somewhere and come back Im different. I never really knew what that meant, so I never really agreed. However, on this day, I believe I now agree. Not many know my story. We all have one, and I went from never telling anyone to telling probably some of the wrong ppl. As Iyanla Vanzant says, ppl have to EARN the right to hear your story. Something else I learned late. Anyway...I have been thinking a lot about belonging. We all need to feel as if we belong. I never believed in sororities (not that theres anything wrong with them), or groups like that because I didnt want a group to define me. Growing up I had no sense of belonging in my home or out of my home. Ive always only belonged one place, with my grandmother. However, as life would have it, I never got to live with her and have never been able to have her live with me. I need to be careful how I say this so none of the nosy ppl who like to read and report will get it wrong (tho Im sure they still will...lol). On today I realized a fear I have greater than the only fear Ive ever had of dying before ever doing anything significant...that fear is the fear that I will never belong. Now Im not saying this for any responses, I really dont want any. Im being vulnerable in the hopes that those who are out there and may feel the same way (thus why I am making this status and this status ONLY public) know that they are not the only one who feels like this. I want all those suffering on the inside, who feel they have no one to talk to, no shoulder to cry on, who feel as if you dont belong to anyone...I want you to know that SOMEbody IS there. That person might be somebody you already know, or somebody you have yet to meet, but there is somebody. And as far as that whole belonging thing...well, lets just hold on to the hope, together, that one day, somewhere, we will finally feel as if we belong. *NO COMMENTS PLEASE
Posted on: Thu, 05 Dec 2013 00:24:14 +0000