National Adoption Awareness Month Day 6: Prayer May 4th, 2014 Prayer was never NOT a part of our process. Im an alter going, floor kneeling, ugly sobbing, bedside praying Momma. Ive never shared this particular moment with any of you...until now. This was taken during my last few moments at the @choosejoyevent 2014. It was quite literally the final tear I shed, I had nothing left. My two roommates (@amberhasfavorites & @redponykells) were homeward bound, leaving me a couple of hours of silence before my amazing new real life friend @androbyn rescued me from solitude. Broken doesnt even begin to explain what I was in that moment. After almost 16 months of what seemed like nothing but dead ends, failures, heartache, loss, and financial destruction I was done. I will never forget texting my husband the words, I am done. This is just too big for us. Praise God, He knew what He was doing. He was in the details from day one. He knew I needed to be there and PRAISE HIM for telling @itsjustemmy the same thing. He allowed me to break. Breaking me is what saved me. #ChooseJoy2014 was both my back breaker & game changer. I dramatically sprawled myself across my bed and I surrendered, both emotionally and spiritually. I faced that fact that I was broken both mentally and physically. I was so accustomed to being in control, telling God I would trust His plan...meanwhile holding onto my own. This was the moment I knew, I couldnt trick Him anymore than I could make this happen on my own timeline. So, I surrendered. My husband, well he already knew. He was waiting. And when he got my text he didnt justify anything, or try to talk me off the ledge. He responded, and his response said it all, It is too big for us, but its not too big for God. 9 days later....Ria Roo was in my arms. I chose Joy and Joy chose me back. God is ALWAYS bigger. His plan is ALWAYS greater. I saved this video as I knew the day would come that I would share it. I titled it His Joy Comes In The Morning #AnditDid #knittogetherbyadoption
Posted on: Fri, 07 Nov 2014 02:12:59 +0000
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