Need help? In the U.S., call 1-800-273-8255, National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. Suicide: This is the topic I am sharing today. If you DO NOT AGREE with my view or something NOT NICE to say about the subject, please USE YOUR OWN STATUS POST to express it. Thank you. Im not an expert in the subject, I dont have any formal education nor have I ever had thoughts or actions myself of suicide. The only criteria I have to draw on is the experience of losing someone very special to the act of suicide. My thoughts and feelings have not changed in five years since he has been gone; they are only further away and the corners of the pain of loss have been rounded slightly. He was loved by so, so many people, and his funeral service was full of those that called him friend and family. The tears run as freely to day as they did then. I cant help but think about what causes this final event in someones life. I have been deeply sad and had mass amount of sorrow that lasted a very long time but never felt the depression that I have seen in the ones I have loss. I listened to expressions of shame, sadness, regret, financial ruin, relationship failures, occupation disappointments and loss of respect from family and friends. I tried to encourage, love, show patience, give direction, be silent, pray, and offer emotional support. I think my loved one had a different perspective on life than me. I do my best, he never felt his best was good enough; I give my love, he felt he could never be good enough to be unconditionally loved; I believe I was created for a purpose and rest that God will direct me, he searched for his purpose with no avail; I believed Jesus saved me of my sins, he believed his sins were too big to forgive. Some people say suicide is selfish. I dont believe he ever thought he was gaining anything for himself by taking his life, rather I believe he felt life was no longer an option. This is someone that didnt CONTINUE to chose life. Many times he chose life when he went to counseling, went to church and he loved Jesus, he reached out to friends and family and sought help for drinking. But there was a time he quit reaching out, he tried to do it on his own, he chose other ways to silence the demons that haunted him. The key, I believe, is REACHING OUT. I have never thought of connection to another human for help to live as a weakness, I never thought of this as a bother, I never thought of this as a mess I didnt want to deal with if someone reached out to me for help; I thought of it as a privilege. We need each other, I needed him and now hes gone. Please, if you find yourself identifying with this keep doing what works. Reach out. Keep reaching out. And then, reach out again.
Posted on: Mon, 24 Nov 2014 01:39:22 +0000