Need to figure out so many things as I clean my room the things left behind I feel heartbroken I do still love and want him but his behavior, lies and attitude I cant anymore.. He pushes everyone away constantly Im tired of walking on egg shells and asking other to do the same.. Long hard road ahead.. Things to be answered and figured out.. Im just tired of talking, fighting, screaming, begging and pleading.. Everyone else gets their happy ever after... Im just not meant too I guess.. So broken inside.. So much going on 4 days my parents move out, TOM left today I kicked him out he said I dont do anything and am not supportive.. I dont spend enough time with him but yet hes sleeping or fishing on my days off.. I dont make enough money but spend too much time at work.. He took his car I gave it to him about 2 yrs ago when I had the van.. So now holidays will be so much harder.. Tax time I got to get a car.. I guess car rides from others.. Sad when you look at life and try to figure out whats wrong and you see looking back you made all the wrong choices and they all begin with your husband thats so physically and mentally sick and needs help but wont.. Tomorrow itll be better, hes like that cuz hes not well.. So sick of making excuses and lying.. The problem is him and me.. Hes the 1st but Im the worst because Ive stood by and let him over 4 yrs make me not me anymore.. I let him.. Ok well I work tomorrow and need some sleep.. CJ is doing well other than hurting a bit because Xbox Kentic and a cast makes stuff hard.. TAYLORS ok shes looking for her dad which makes me cry but I know in my heart this has to happen if me and my children ever expect or want to be happy and we deserve to be.. Warning is over.. Consequences come with every action... I love and miss my husband I do but love can not fix everything and it stops working when theres only one side trying.. Ok GN Hugs, Love, Kisses & Prayers from #CJsGiftNLife And 311 Crew and Momma Jo praying and wishing you have had and will have a better day than me.. Gn all ( thanks for all the love and support )
Posted on: Sun, 12 Oct 2014 02:30:51 +0000
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