Never quit when you have a lot faith, a big promise, and a lot of Jesus and horses! Today would have been moms 47th birthday! I lost her to cancer when I was turning 17, am now 22 and life has changed so much thats for sure ! Mom called me in one night she was laying in bed and trying to have a serious talk with me, I didnt want to hear it, I was a teen and have seen her get through cancer before, car wrecks, and so many other life altering trials I knew she could get passed this. I told her I dont want to hear what your going to say, cause your going to make it. She said Stevie I want your attention now! Mom had sharp German eyes and a stern voice and look, when it reached that look and tone, you best be quiet.. These next words are probably what drive me so much today. Stevie I dont to care what decisions you make in life but you have a gift, never quit riding, I dont care what it is never quit riding for anything. At the time I didnt understand why she was telling me this or why she needed to say it. I knew we didnt see eye to eye a lot but did not understand why she thought I needed to hear that of all things life was okay and she was going to be okay, I thought. I know now that when your in the real world, there is so much in this world that will try to drain, you and make you not want to do the things your passionate about, or lead you to believe your not good enough, when you are.. So as my momma said to me I say to you, never quit riding ! Every time I may think Im not good enough or cant reach that next level, God places people in my life to share and help me just when I would think Stevie what on earth are you doing! Lol. There has been so much Ive wanted her to physically be here for but her memories are always with me :). That woman had more grit and strength than any person Ive met to this day! She was always in the saddle and well, Sometimes a little more out there than most but she was mom and I, was always, no matter what we went through, right or wrong, her baby girl. I sold the 8 horses we had before I went to college, 3 months into college thinking I was done with horses and in the middle of school had two people send me horses. I started to focus more on the horses than I did school. And prayed and prayed and prayed and had a peace in my heart to return home, and train horses. I couldnt picture myself doing anything else with my life, well other than giving motivational speeches, or writing a book one day, maybe opening up a home for children who have been through life altering trials and need structure and a Christian foundation. But most of all loving Jesus and working horses. And as I remember my momma telling me as serious as she could be Stevie I dont care what decisions you make in life never, you have a gift, never quit riding I do what I love and cant picture not riding a horse, I still dont see the gift that she says I just see others ahead of me and strategize what I need to do to get to that next level, it does makes me a little sad to think back on when I picture her in the state she was in but it also makes me giggle and smile though to. Because momma, if you only knew how much your voice echoes in my head to this day just to not quit, and if you could see where Jesus and horses have taken me these last few years I know you would be proud ! :) love and miss you always! Happy birthday.
Posted on: Fri, 05 Dec 2014 15:24:28 +0000
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