No Matter What By: April Grisham 3 years & 1 month ago I went to get help They all told me You cant do it by yourself I was overwhelmed Wanted to say, Shove it! They told me to calm down And remember, Easy does it I was told to get a sponsor And I was like, Why? I thought, What a joke! They said, Work the Steps or die! At first I resisted All because of fear I said, I got this They said, Your best thinking got you here! I was pretty offended But I listened anyway Worried & scared to death They said, Just for today I began working the Steps And started to be healed They said this is forever And More will be revealed I began to feel emotions I felt under attack They said, The best & worst thing about recovery Is you get your feelings back There were times I wanted to give up There were times I couldnt see I got angry when they told me, Youre right where youre supposed to be I stayed the course anyway Recovery seemed so far I wanted to run away But they said, Where ever you go, there you are I took all their suggestions At times Id just smile & nod Then, life showed up They told me, Let go and let God At 18 months clean Everything happened so fast I lost my job & almost lost my brother They said, This too shall pass I wanted to use so badly I felt it in my gut They held my hand & told me, Dont use no matter what I stayed clean through it all But Ive also made mistakes But I have stayed willing To do Whatever it takes I have to take suggestions To avoid being in a hearse And remember that no matter what My recovery MUST always come FIRST I still keep a gratitude list I still continue to climb Sometimes its really hard But I take it One day at a time Things still make me angry At times I scream & swear But I calm myself down Saying The Serenity Prayer I still hit my knees & pray My brain still has a short circuit But its true when they say, It works if you work it I havent relapsed YET I have a lot of haters Sometimes its hard to deal with But I know It gets greater later Recovery has changed my life Acceptance is the key Ive learned so much And gained serenity I never thought it was possible I never thought Id find A way to stay clean And gain true peace of mind So, if you think its impossible And you feel under attack Just know We Do Recover And Keep Coming Back!
Posted on: Sat, 24 Jan 2015 14:00:31 +0000
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