No matter how uncomfortable I believe in the healing power of personal truth. Reading ALL the birthday wishes was an overwhelming moment of healing for me. For so many years I tucked away these memories gave up on finding any remedy. Listen I knew I was a mess I started as a teen purging the inside the memories searching for anything that would teach me to love and be free. But these certain memories attached to my birthday were forever welded to my heart until yesterday. As I was reading all your messages I thought of the memories when she gritted her teeth said I ruined everything ruined my birthday she was going to her room to kill herself and it was my fault. I cant remember what I did I think I cracked a glass or something who knows it was always something I did to make her want to kill herself. I then thought of the time on my birthday when he grabbed my face gritted his teeth( why do they always grit their teeth?) he said you are pathetic you should kill yourself you worthless piece of shit. As I was reading all the birthday wishes thinking of these memories I felt all the love pouring out from all over this world and I cried. I cried Not tears of pain but tears of love. In 44 years had I given up I would have missed this moment of love you all gave me. You are beautiful to me and I am overwhelmed with gratitude for all the love you gave me yesterday. Thank you XOXOXO ~Love Cecelia
Posted on: Wed, 16 Jul 2014 13:07:01 +0000