Not long ago, a close family friend who was like our sister, put a suicide note on Facebook,then to our horror killed herself, before that we lost my little brother who also killed himself, its his birthday sunday, so obviously its a hard time right now being only a couple days away. feeling broken all over again, knowing Once again he wont be walking through my door. but whats making it even harder is seeing people put up statuses that they have had enough and want to kill themselves, how about take a look at your kids that live for you and your family that will die inside, and lose a part of them that they can never ever get back, I get times are hard and can be a huge struggle, and I understand the overwhelming feeling of loneliness and darkness that many of us experience many times In our lives, but nothing compares to the Soul retching heartache of losing someone so close to you, as you watch them leave this world, you feel them tear away a part of you and replace it with heartache and pain, that will never leave your soul, and unanswered questions that haunt you every moment and will do till you take your last breath, nothing is that bad that someone cant help pull you out of, and yeah you feel alone, but you never will be, you will be surprised at what you will see if you look up and reach out. life is hard, but working towards a happy life with those who need and love you, and reaching that moment when you look back and think, l struggled but i battled through it, Is saving all those you love a life of pain that otherwise they Would never have thought possible, its one thing to die,its another to live feeling like your dead inside, if you cant fight for your own life, fight for those you gave life to, and those who gave life to you, we werent given a choice of only having one life, but we do have the choice to live it, l battled l6 yrs to become the person I am today, at the end of the day its all about truly finding yourself, which can be a journey, but every minute is worth it, My heart will always be broken knowing that those I loved died never knowing who they truly were inside,If l couId bring my little brother back and somehow show him that feeling of no longer doubting who he is and feeling the empowerment of finding the person he lost, then atLeast he got to leave this world with truth in his heart rather than doubt, sorry for the Novel but people need to see that even if they dont think this life is for them, they will be taking a lot more with them than they can ever imagine, and its just not fair.
Posted on: Fri, 15 Aug 2014 06:51:30 +0000