Now is my chance to say something spectacular! I just healed myself from a momentary set back I felt after I read a comic book written by my sister who faked it by writing names of two authors who did not write it! It is about my parents and her! She had likened me to herself and her to me in colour and expression ( everyone has felt she is always emulating my photos and concealing them and wants to be me! It was clear she does not like her own skin colour I happen to be white and have sharp features often wondered if I had an Austrian father since I paint like Austrian artists! I did not know she was hanging on to this wound of being dark. Furthermore she obviously has been wounded knowing my parents loved me the most! She therefore ostracized me by using emotional manipulations and scare tactics on all aunts, uncles and siblings and you name it , she did it!!!! I suffered in the past from this ostracisation! But then I decided not to hang on to this horrible feeling in my stomach! I am a Gestalt therapist and Philosophical consultant, a doctor of philosophy who has a good grounding in Psychoanalysis through analysis and studies I think gestalt is the best method by far that Fritz Perls school taught me at Shalal ! I therefore used Gestalt on myself and turned to Krishna Conviousness and of course I had had a powerful experience of the Lord himself !!! This experience is rarest in the world! Greek saints and Russian Fathers experienced similar experiences! I therefore constantly turn to Jesus and deities that are merciful to me for help! I feel uplifted enormously and now I am going to do my yoga exercises ! I felt close to my own skin and bones and began to breathe the breadths that were blocked by a mini trauma from having received a cruel publication which compromises my aristocratic parents and me.! She seated me in the back row looking like a darkie and my father in a similar tone! She made herself look white! These are illustrations she finalized which were supposed to have mimicked photographs!! I first laughed and so did my friend when we saw this switch of colouring and my attendance at her wedding in the pic! I never was even invited to her wedding and besides I was in Canada whereas she married overseas! To top it off she sends me this hurtful mag fedex for my birthday!! It arrived on Christmas Eve instead ! I have had time to get over the shock and so I will be able to enjoy my birthday which is on New Years Eve!!! This is not a new experience ! She started doing this when she turned eight! I was bright in school and prodigy of my teachers in Sacred Heart whereas she was a poor student weak in Maths! Nuns wanted her out of the school! She was sent to anther school since then she has envied me to a point that my mother and father suffered perpetually from her manipulations and pressure ion them in her attempts to ostracize me! She went for assist ion of male power! Everyone in the family was terrorized, she would give threats to us when she was angry !!! I do feel invincible since I have survived all her attempts to undo my joy! I accomplished becoming an artist of repute and an academic philosopher with a PhD after studying in four Top Universities in Europe , India and Canada! My book is published now by Amazon. Com : title: Truth over Method: Art Matters ! My website is wwwrunhildroeder. Enjoy looking at these powerful and beautiful paintings and reading my book of three hundred pages revising German Idealism ! It is on a leading twentieth century philosopher Hans agog Gadamer but I also link my thought to Vedanta ! I conclude here Dance goes on ! Let us dance! We are loved if we do not hurt anyone and keep going on our own journey but we make sure we stay out of harms way!!!!
Posted on: Sun, 28 Dec 2014 01:51:13 +0000